Am I that worst?

I am actually a irresponsible and selfish person to someone. I'm forgetful, lazy and also a late pig to some people... anyway think that's a fact.

Think I really need sometime to really reflect on myself.

The Race

Just chat with a friend of mine in MSN.

He used to be on fire for God, he is only 17 or 18? He is a person with cert or diploma in Bible School. He was a street evangelism, mission team leader. I heard that he often travels to aust to spread the gospel.

Saw this in his msn nick "When mountains fall i will stand.. by the power of my hands.. i don't need you at all GET OUT OF MY LIFE, GOD!!!"

Me: ?

Me: hi there

Him: ?

Me: what are you talking

Me: in your nick?

Him: mean, when i falls i will stand. with my strea and power

Him: :)

Him: i need him to leave me first..

Him: i'm going crazy

Me: why?

Him: Doctor already approved to send me to imh!!!

Him: i'm crazy!!!

Him: they thot i'm nuts (Gone Offline)

That is just so discouraging...

We may start the race well, but that dosen't mean we will end the race well.

New Road

I'm making a decision... A big decision... A decision that will affect my entire life....

I choose this road.

I will live diffrently.... Yes I will... For I have already step out.

I choose this road.

There is no turning back.

Yes means yes, No means No.

Yes.

Quiet down myself for what?

Morning student in school.

Afternoon guitarist in service.

Evening pig in the bed. Ermm.. not going to sleep, just want to blank my mind for a while... after hearing so much noise.... it is time for me to quiet down. There is time that I need to be alone and quiet down myself, but sometimes people just cannot understand why we (not everyone) want to be alone. This is a way for us (not everyone) to recharge our physical energy.

Nearer to dream

Just have the feel of what I want to do in the future.

One step closer....

I am nearer...

I will pay the price!

Choices

Sometimes we can't choose what we want,

So if we can make a decision, we should really take it seriously.

If the decision is made then there is no turning back, I choose the road.

I choose this course... But why am I loosing the spirit? Where gone wrong? Mentally.

I am not the study kind of person, it is really a miracle I can come to this far... I can do it, we can do it...
Let's do it!!! The choice is ours.

I choose to do last min work... Ok... jin tian bu shui jiao!!!

Childish?

Back to our seoncdary school days... I remember we can talk about everything at the phone, complain about our friends and things like that. Come to think of it, it is very girlish to do that.

we have now stop after my post ITE life and their post O lvl life? Think our chat is now more meaningful, not that often but it is 10 times better than those girlish type of chatting...

So why are we so girlish when we were young? Because girls are childish. Hehe sorry girls... Just joking... Boys and Girls... think we have diffrent childish behavior... For guys it is pride that make us childish for girls maybe because of their innocent behavior? Or maybe they are as sensitive as a child? Not very sure.. Well just my point of view. Ermm didn't say I am writting the fact... So dun blame me if I say anything wrong. Ok? Hehe...

Shift

Bedok... What a nice and convinient place. My church, Mrt, friends and alot more are all around me. If I leave... everything will change and I just have to accept it.

Zheng Xin! Can't visit you that often, can't visit Joe that often and cell group will not come anymore...
Hahaha.... anyway not so soon, will take years for us to move. Just pray that we won't move.

Guess that's us... humans... We dun like new enviroment, we should learn to accept new things and of course we should also treasure everything while we are still here... because we won't know what will happen tomorrow. Maybe you guys are wondering why am I becoming more and more straight forward compared to last time, It is because I really don't want to waste my time hiding anymore. I just want to let everyone know I treasure every relationship, every friend... Yes EVERY! I'm serious.... And yes its you...

Hmm... I think too much again ahaha... should sleep now.

The beauty of success

Someone have found a way out.

A way to success.

Why am I feeling so happy?

Sometimes I really think too much... anyway... it is because I care for him? So lets compare, am I heading to the path of success? I dunno. Maybe. Should spend more time looking at myself.