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I can't open my mouth

I can't express it in my old ways...

No

Not anymore.. not anymore...

Let me walk the only way.

The heart deep inside

I don't understand myself.. And I want to understand myself. Now I'm going in to my heart.. I'll let you know what I see when I'm out.

Artistic people

Most of the Artistic people (esp musicians) will behave strangely at times. They often spend their time walking around, or at the room alone. That dosen't mean that musicians don't talk, they do... some are real good jokers but they just need time to be alone, when reach certain time.. their mood will swing..

Most of the people thought they have attitude problems, but they are just a bunch of people that need help. People say only musicians can cure musicians, only musicians that came out from their old self (just like anti biotic) know the key of getting out. If nobody is going to help them, then they must save themselve.

I want to go...

I'm living in a diffrent world

Longing that some miracles will come

So that I can enter someplace I want...

The day will come... the day will come.

A request, not forgetting my purpose here.

Both of my pc are down, now I'm using my friend's pc... Recently... Quite alot of things happened... And thank God I am just positive enough to go on... At least there is still happiness in my life, it is enough already... I'm just a simple guy... I dun expect much in my life.. Really... Really... Just a simple request.... just one... hmm... okie... I'm doing well though haha... alot of things didn't come out as I expect... but I guess that's life... just need to let go, continue... and get better! No pain no gain!

I'm not immune to pain.

I can't stop my sweat coming out from my palms.

I can't change the temperature of my body.

But I can change the way I think.

This world is much more meaningful and beautiful when I see my purpose of living.

August 2004

There is much more to learn, there is much more to go through, Well... How am I? Think it is already quite sometime since I last talk about myself...

Much better, happier, friendlier(BHB), cutier (BHB), gentier(BHB), Carrier(BHB), cheerfuier(BHB)...

Hm... have to forget the pass and continue with hope.. Well quite a few things happened recently.

1. UFO... Though it may be quite a outdated news for some people... But haha... anyway.. I saw you a UFO not long ago, very round and quite big too with red light blinking... It cloaks and dissapear slowly... Sounds crazy I know but ermm thats true.. Well.. I belive the existence of UFO.. But some say it might harm you spirtually... So my advice is dun get too close to those UFO and alien thingy.

2. New guitarists... Haha I know I seldom upload church stuff here, but I think it is really a great joy to see people successful in learning guitar, what a hardworking sister... Hm... I'm very very proud of her although I didn't do much but just told her what I know... Now she can even teach too!! More to come more to come hehe.. Multiply!

3. Sold my house... I welcome your visitation to my new house.... Hehe...

Things come and go easily, just let God take control and Stay close with Him. Move on guys!

Real tired

I'm... So... so tired... Argh... I really... really.. dunno whether I can make it or not... There is just so many things left for me to do... Argh... Time is running out.. Those stupid hospital appointments are really wasting my time... Why all come together in my busy week? I got projects, presentation, test to do.. and the hospital appointments so accurate all come in this week... And then I still have to quickily finish my test early to rush to hospital for appointment.  Well, I went to the hospital late but lucky the doc still there, she told me that I still have to attend further appointments few months later... Arghh... Hai...

I am no more... Gone... Well before that... I just want to say I... I..................

Jazz

jazz   

Music.

A style of music, native to America, characterized by a strong but flexible rhythmic understructure with solo and ensemble improvisations on basic tunes and chord patterns and, more recently, a highly sophisticated harmonic idiom.
Big band dance music.

Slang.

Animation; enthusiasm.
Nonsense.
unspecified things: brought the food and all the jazz to go with it. -Taken from Dictionary

"Moving from Bedok to Bedok... Sounds like Jazz...  Now I'm doing my project in the middle of the night, I'm doing a multimedia program, a Music Dictionary program, doing the Jazz section now... And hope I can do some Jazz to gain more marks, well... Like objects moving around things like that.. heh... I'm not that Jazz enough to work on my project, well... time to continue my Jazz section and some other Jazz." -Taken from The Jazz moments Author: Emil Lim or Lin Qilong

Hope

Days of my childhood, Happy and got nothing to worry...

Really miss those days... but as I started to grow, I started to see the problems around me... family problems, I'm lack of Dad's love... Of course it is because he dosen't really have much time for me and we seldom have chance to see each other.

I dun blame him...

Alot of my friends told me that they won't leave me but they left me, some even betrayed me... I dun blame them... Maybe I'm not a good friend too.

Yes maybe I'm really lack of love... Until one day I experienced the perfect love, the unfailing love of God. But once in a while I still look back, when I face problems, stressed and stuff like that..

These few days really have quite alot of things happened to me, maybe it is just in my mind... Maybe the enviroment affect quite abit.. it caused me to look back to the past once again... But thank God... Something happened... It brings me hope... I'm completely set free... Hope enter my life.. For the first time.. I'm so happy... Maybe this is my happiest moments in my life after my childhood days... I have become very positive nowadays... I felt so diffrent.