Belated The Black Road's 3rd Anniversary Night

My blog is about 1 and a half years old since I published online. Hmm.. I know I am abit lazy, didn't decorate much and I didn't insert the tag board. I hope I'll do it one day.

First I would like to say blog is not my diary or what, it is just a place for me to talk, whether you accept it or not... I can raise up my views and things like that, k... it might not be right, but at least there are readers of my views.

I want to thank you guys... for reading my views and stuffs all these years. Hmm.. so let me celebrate my blog's birthday today, okie I know it is abit too late... but still I think I should celebrate... Happy Brithday to The Black Road Happy Birthday To You!!!

Thanks for reading, some of my buddies... like lost contact, if you are still reading my blog.. just want to say I won't forget you and thank you for everything.

The Black Road - Till the day I leave this place, Till the day of eternity, Till the day I complete the journey of.... "The Black Road" you will read the last chapter of my days in The Black Road. See you in heaven?

Guitar dream

Hey do I look nice that day on the stage? Standing up on the stage with the guitar... I am the big star that day in the wedding. Ooops... Just joking...

My guitar sounds okay? Guess so... many people give me positive comments.. anyway... guitarist is always the coolest supporting role i think... though many might not agree.

I've waited for so long.. After Michelle's wedding till now how many months have passed? I forgot... but I dun always get the chance to play it. I'm really happy.

I love doing supporting role, just like the cool supporting archer in the "some" show.

I dun need people to notice me, I love to support... but I think in reliaty we can't choose what we want.

Requirement

If only I'm taller, she might consider dating me. That's what she told Fiona. If only I'm taller, I might be more popular... But who cares? Haha... I dun need to be popular.

Hm... I dun flirt with girls, maybe that's a + to her but most of the time girls will appreciate more to those guys who will flirt, those abit naughty type.

That's how one of my bro managed to date with her.

But I still want to be taller, dun get me wrong... I'm not interested to date her, just... I think as a guy, we should reach certain height.

I really dun desire to be popular... God knows.

Can I be taller?

A new life

So everything is over... Just before I wanted to relax, I found a new challenge. I did promise myself to be a new Emil after my studies. Not only
transformed physcially but mentally.

Today is the day... Today is the time... Now is the time... For me to change... For me to change... For me to change.... For me to change.... For me to change.... Yes... I want to change... I want to change... Heh...

Im an adult. Have to remind myself... always have alot of sis treat me like a younger brother, even people same age with me, or some even younger than me... Some say guys are childish, some say guys are not acting their role, some say Im just innocent. Whatever it is... I've gone through a terrible lesson today... Just happened 1+ hours before now.

Maybe no one can understand my feelings now, trust me it is very uncomfortable and discouraging. Hmm... I just finished my studies... I think now is a great time to start, a new start... so it is time for me to wake up.

Today is the day... Today is the time... Now is the time... For me to change... For me to change... For me to change.... For me to change.... For me to change.... Yes... I want to change... I want to change... Heh...

Chalet with Bedokviewens and New friends

Haha.. Just came back from the funniest chalet I've ever seen. We ate Canadian Pizza for our dinner. Through the friends from the st john side in my sec school days, I made some new friends. They are those very wild kind of girls and hmm.. all my friends was like shocked to see that kind of people in the chalet, never expect this kind of girls would appeared to us in the chalet. Well.. I think our ah beng friend enjoyed the company very much.

I think those wild girls were good in those kind of pole dance, but actually I didn't really enjoyed that moment... Hmm.. maybe it was abit too much, too sexy for girls to dance that way. But.. that's just my opinion, anyway I have no right to say anything. Hmm.. also I think the talk was abit "too open" and hmm.. I dun think that's very good... ermm.. ya that's just my opinion.

Overall... I really enjoyed the company, it's good to make all kinds of friends and even our ah beng, though last time he was not that beng... but really I think it's good to mix around with all kinds of people. That's why I purposly take photo with them, it's really good to know them and NOT because they are attractive. Anyway, they are attractive... But, I have my stand.. ya.. I think hmm.. I can't be that "Open" to stay overnight with them. Hope you know what I mean... dun get me wrong.. no offence to those who is probably sleeping now at the chalet by this time.

Ya btw... you know who you are, I dun think it is good to outcast yourself from the group. Since we are there.. we must as well get to know everyone right?

Ya one more thing... I think Micheal is nice, glad that I can know him more today.

Keep in touch! Boys and gers!

Awake from yesterday

Im awake from yesterday,

just like a dream...

just like a story...

just like I am drunk with emotions...

I'm awake... I'm awake... It's strange... it's really strange.... I dun think anyone will believe me... It dosen't really matter anymore... I'm back... And once again I see the sun shine again as I skip my school today. I think it is worth it for me to take a rest. Well... thanks for listening... After all I dun think you understand what I'm saying. Heh...

Failed to Install Again

Computers hates to co-operate with humans, one day humans will get it if we continue to develop all our hope in this high tech stuff.

Hmm... I am feeling very helpless right now, Now I must try my luck in school and I dun even know when the class is available. Duh... somemore it takes 1 hr plus for me to reach my school.

God... please help me, this is my last term.

Hunger for magic

Getting tougher and tougher... but there are much more waiting at the back.

The future is ringing at my mind, every moment, every min, may the hunger for magic ends.

I hope when I enter into the new realm of life, I can tell myself, I haven't waste any of my time.

Hmm... Wanted get this book for myself "Twenty Something".

April: End of the 1st stage

My studies is coming to an end on april, Im feeling excited for my new stage of life.

Hmm... there are so many dreams for me to chase after, so many goals I have set for myself... yes I'll reach the finishing line!

In april you will see a new physical Emil (hopefully my mind will be more positive too), hopefully... someday... we will have the chance to be together in the camp, in the outside world to fight again. Hopefully after my NS I will still be the same Emil you want me to be, okie... maybe a bit more matured and smart? Hehee... tomorrow will be a better day. :)

Let it all be done, before the world ends.