Requirement

If only I'm taller, she might consider dating me. That's what she told Fiona. If only I'm taller, I might be more popular... But who cares? Haha... I dun need to be popular.

Hm... I dun flirt with girls, maybe that's a + to her but most of the time girls will appreciate more to those guys who will flirt, those abit naughty type.

That's how one of my bro managed to date with her.

But I still want to be taller, dun get me wrong... I'm not interested to date her, just... I think as a guy, we should reach certain height.

I really dun desire to be popular... God knows.

Can I be taller?

A new life

So everything is over... Just before I wanted to relax, I found a new challenge. I did promise myself to be a new Emil after my studies. Not only
transformed physcially but mentally.

Today is the day... Today is the time... Now is the time... For me to change... For me to change... For me to change.... For me to change.... For me to change.... Yes... I want to change... I want to change... Heh...

Im an adult. Have to remind myself... always have alot of sis treat me like a younger brother, even people same age with me, or some even younger than me... Some say guys are childish, some say guys are not acting their role, some say Im just innocent. Whatever it is... I've gone through a terrible lesson today... Just happened 1+ hours before now.

Maybe no one can understand my feelings now, trust me it is very uncomfortable and discouraging. Hmm... I just finished my studies... I think now is a great time to start, a new start... so it is time for me to wake up.

Today is the day... Today is the time... Now is the time... For me to change... For me to change... For me to change.... For me to change.... For me to change.... Yes... I want to change... I want to change... Heh...

Chalet with Bedokviewens and New friends

Haha.. Just came back from the funniest chalet I've ever seen. We ate Canadian Pizza for our dinner. Through the friends from the st john side in my sec school days, I made some new friends. They are those very wild kind of girls and hmm.. all my friends was like shocked to see that kind of people in the chalet, never expect this kind of girls would appeared to us in the chalet. Well.. I think our ah beng friend enjoyed the company very much.

I think those wild girls were good in those kind of pole dance, but actually I didn't really enjoyed that moment... Hmm.. maybe it was abit too much, too sexy for girls to dance that way. But.. that's just my opinion, anyway I have no right to say anything. Hmm.. also I think the talk was abit "too open" and hmm.. I dun think that's very good... ermm.. ya that's just my opinion.

Overall... I really enjoyed the company, it's good to make all kinds of friends and even our ah beng, though last time he was not that beng... but really I think it's good to mix around with all kinds of people. That's why I purposly take photo with them, it's really good to know them and NOT because they are attractive. Anyway, they are attractive... But, I have my stand.. ya.. I think hmm.. I can't be that "Open" to stay overnight with them. Hope you know what I mean... dun get me wrong.. no offence to those who is probably sleeping now at the chalet by this time.

Ya btw... you know who you are, I dun think it is good to outcast yourself from the group. Since we are there.. we must as well get to know everyone right?

Ya one more thing... I think Micheal is nice, glad that I can know him more today.

Keep in touch! Boys and gers!

Awake from yesterday

Im awake from yesterday,

just like a dream...

just like a story...

just like I am drunk with emotions...

I'm awake... I'm awake... It's strange... it's really strange.... I dun think anyone will believe me... It dosen't really matter anymore... I'm back... And once again I see the sun shine again as I skip my school today. I think it is worth it for me to take a rest. Well... thanks for listening... After all I dun think you understand what I'm saying. Heh...

Failed to Install Again

Computers hates to co-operate with humans, one day humans will get it if we continue to develop all our hope in this high tech stuff.

Hmm... I am feeling very helpless right now, Now I must try my luck in school and I dun even know when the class is available. Duh... somemore it takes 1 hr plus for me to reach my school.

God... please help me, this is my last term.

Hunger for magic

Getting tougher and tougher... but there are much more waiting at the back.

The future is ringing at my mind, every moment, every min, may the hunger for magic ends.

I hope when I enter into the new realm of life, I can tell myself, I haven't waste any of my time.

Hmm... Wanted get this book for myself "Twenty Something".

April: End of the 1st stage

My studies is coming to an end on april, Im feeling excited for my new stage of life.

Hmm... there are so many dreams for me to chase after, so many goals I have set for myself... yes I'll reach the finishing line!

In april you will see a new physical Emil (hopefully my mind will be more positive too), hopefully... someday... we will have the chance to be together in the camp, in the outside world to fight again. Hopefully after my NS I will still be the same Emil you want me to be, okie... maybe a bit more matured and smart? Hehee... tomorrow will be a better day. :)

Let it all be done, before the world ends.

Explore the heart

Imagine a large empty room. The walls are white and featureless. There is a wooden writing desk in the middle of this room, and on this desk you can see a few reams of writing paper, a ruler, and a black fountain pen.A man is seated in front of this desk. His name is not Edmund. He does not remember his name. He does not even know how he came to be in this room. There are no doors, no windows. A feeding tube protrudes from one wall. A squatting toilet has been placed on the opposite wall. The room is otherwise completely empty.What would you do if you were the man in front of the desk? Would you look through the desk drawers? Would you smash the toilet with the desk? Try to escape through it? Search the walls for weak spots? Break the feeding tube? Or would you sit down and start to write or draw, as the unknown intelligence who placed you in the room has clearly intended for you to do? How long would you resist doing so? What would you do if you were a woman?And, assuming that all attempts to escape were futile, what would you write? What would you draw?The answer, I think, may be the beginning of a very interesting journey.Shall we think about it?

(Extracted from Lim Kee Min, the Author of "The Broad Thighs of Justice [Lite]" For more information of my favourite Blog writer or to read his blog, find and click the link under my Young Adults category)

Hmm... I think that is going to make me very annoyed, especially I am that kind that can't settle down myself, I'm too active. If I can't escape then I'll write a physical blog, write some songs, direct a movie or maybe a drama for myself? Or maybe I'll presume that I am a somekind of undercover who was captured by some bad guys with high tech stuffs, maybe nuclear warheads, maybe somekind of new drugs, they erased the memories in my brain using those high tech stuffs... "My girl is waiting for me out there! I gotto get out of here!" Sounds familiar... Hollywood or those Hong Kong movies...

Bug's Occupation

Hmm... Just wrote quite alot of things but all is gone now. Black out. It is in the afternoon but my house is dark. Dark dark house, just finish clearing the bugs that nearly infested my whole house, one of their favourite hiding... our sofa... thats the darkest area.

Darkest mind, secret space, let it all be cleared too.

Happy Chinese Lunar New Year!