Loneliness

Loneliness is feeling my heart right now as I'm preparing for my second book in, I hate this kind of feeling... It's hard to explain, it's like going in to one of the cell in the prison once again. I know when I step in to the place again, I am no more myself again, I belongs to the police force every single min till the eating and sleeping time.

No one is with me now, I have to take my leave... just me... and God.

Looking forward to my next bookout. See you guys again.

Toughest Life Yet

If you happen to see me, or even chat with me on msn... please do not try to make me mad. I'm sorry, I dun sound nice.. and I can't bring myself to be nice... so... ya please do understand.

Who can understand my life now? Hmm.. maybe some NS guy can... but this kind of thing is very personal. No one is with you, I have to help myself, I am all alone. I have to endure to the end...

Go ahead and laugh if you want, just dun laugh infront of me.. can? Please.. I'm not trying to be dramatic or what... or act or whatever you want to say... just.. If I dosen't sound nice.. please forgive me... for I'm going through my toughest part of life. This is life, my life.

Last words

Okie I'm going in to police academy tomorrow.. so I'll be missing a while. Promise myself again... must be more mature when I come out... cool and mature! :P So now, let me spend sometime on my last words before I go in.


God is in control/God's beautiful creation

Things will only come to past after our heavenly father approved it, just want to be thankful to Him.. for preventing something to happen, guess I will lose something valuable if He allows.

So why do bad things still happen? It is to prevent something even worst from occuring. Let just say all the people that participates in the bad incidents are saving you from falling into a bigger hole.

So no matter what happens, give thanks to Him..

I'm going to spend something to talk about my keyboard coach, though she is just my make up lesson coach... but I find her very sweet, very sweet looking, with spect and she'll sing songs that we need to play for the lessons... her sound is even more sweet! High pitch tone, with her contemperory way of singing.. I really fell in love with her voice..

I dun like to count the beats when playing music.. but she always say "1 and 2 and 3 and 4 E and A" and the sound is like so cute... that makes me like counting. Haha... okie... anyway she told me "veryyy goood" for my piano presentation. Praise God.. byebye sweet coach.. hope I can see you in the future course I taking.

Anyway.. just admire this kind of girl.. thats all.. dun anyhow think... haha.. just felt very amazing with God's creation!

Drama Experience

Drama stories come from real life, as I grow... I started to hear, see and even experience things we see from drama. There are alot of things I want in life right now so badly, I love so much, I miss so badly and I haven't own them yet... but at least... nothing reject the things I invested. At least it is not a no for me to reach what I want, what I desire....

There's one thing I think it's nice to have in drama, we see true friendship... even when someone didn't appreciate what you invested, they still love them.. I have yet to experience it, but I know it exist in this present day. How nice!