Nothing much about myself

Sometimes I felt what I have been receving is too good for myself, how I hope there will be another person sharing the same joy with me. Maybe.. I've been wanting it for too much, gone astray, but I think in life it is always like this... I've been telling myself again and again, don't control the situation anymore. Because I will never control it. The moment is now, what I have I treasure it, what I have lost... it's lost.

I can never do anything again. I don't want to be self-centered again, what's so good about myself? I've been redeemed and it is no longer I who live... so I'll let Him live, maybe it is time to risk my life for Him soon. I really don't know... but I'll just go if He tells me to.