Treasure
Okie... I'm not allowed to leak information related to the force, so I'll talk about something else.
Just read my cousin's blog about grandpa, in my mind he is still alive, in the tea area... look so powerful... I can't really accept his sudden death. I recalled that he likes to talk to my cousin, he would smile in almost every conversation with my cousin, it's a golden smile.
I wanted to tell him that I've grown up, to tell him that he is someone I respect alot. If only he is still alive.
That day... I was one of the few to see him go, I told myself he was still alive at that moment just like what others thought. But my dad told me that he is gone forever, the breathing in the dead body was just the hospital machine functioning inside his dead body.
about 7 years have passed, time flies... and now I'm already in my ns. I dun trust people easily, it really takes time for me to trust my bunkmate. I have a few good brothers inside, even so... I always have the thinking that after we POP we will have our own seperate ways to go and we'll be drifted away slowly. So many people treat friendship so lightly and no one will be there for us forever because one day we'll have to go.
After my ns I'm going to visit my relatives in China and USA, I want to know my relatives, I want to visit my home, China.
Life is short, treasure everyone... everything... before it is too late.
"What have you done will make a fullest everyone." Heard this song in my eating corner in camp.
Sunday, July 10, 2005
Important days 14 May 2004 & 6 April 2005...Impacts of my life. Just want to remind myself. I'll always remember these 2 important days of my life. Oh btw... Looking forward to my POP in 3 months time. Want to get out of there as soon as possible. Job course will start next week, I'll be staying there for 10 days. Hope that everything will be better, please pray for me.
Sunday, July 03, 2005
Days with hair
Ah.. smiling with freedom!
My younger bro and me
My younger brother's sis and me. Hahaha... not funny.
I kinda miss my hair, these photos are all taken from the malacca retreat. Heard a rumour from people, do you know why we have to cut botha hairstyle before we go in to ns? That's because we will lose our confident when we are botha, we will lose our pride and everything.
Even myself find it hard to understand this kind of saying but I remember a incident, I grew up in a gangster enviroment as I was a Normal Tech student in my secondary school days. There was this handsome beng (gangster), very daring, very confident, like to keep his hair long, he won't cry no matter how many times my discipline master caned him. To him public caning is nothing and because of this he always misbehave himself in school but one day, my discipline master caught him not keeping his hair short and he cut a hole in his hair... guess what? He cried for the first time.
So funny... You might be thinking, the true reasons for botha rules in ns are
1. So that we can be fast, no need to care about our hair appearance
2. So that we will all look the same
if that's the case, then why my senior are allowed to keep their hair? They work as a squad too! One more thing, whats the point of make us all the same? To make them harder to regconise who is who? (They really can't regconise the IC they apointed at the first day) One more question... why they cut all prisoners botha? So that they will all look the same too? What's the point right? It will only increase more troubles for themselve.
Once we lose our pride, confident and everything... we will be humble and after they let us have this kind of mentality, after that... even if we are not botha, but we will still be the old botha infront of our superior.
It's a psychology thing... I think.
Ah.. smiling with freedom!
My younger bro and me
My younger brother's sis and me. Hahaha... not funny.
I kinda miss my hair, these photos are all taken from the malacca retreat. Heard a rumour from people, do you know why we have to cut botha hairstyle before we go in to ns? That's because we will lose our confident when we are botha, we will lose our pride and everything.
Even myself find it hard to understand this kind of saying but I remember a incident, I grew up in a gangster enviroment as I was a Normal Tech student in my secondary school days. There was this handsome beng (gangster), very daring, very confident, like to keep his hair long, he won't cry no matter how many times my discipline master caned him. To him public caning is nothing and because of this he always misbehave himself in school but one day, my discipline master caught him not keeping his hair short and he cut a hole in his hair... guess what? He cried for the first time.
So funny... You might be thinking, the true reasons for botha rules in ns are
1. So that we can be fast, no need to care about our hair appearance
2. So that we will all look the same
if that's the case, then why my senior are allowed to keep their hair? They work as a squad too! One more thing, whats the point of make us all the same? To make them harder to regconise who is who? (They really can't regconise the IC they apointed at the first day) One more question... why they cut all prisoners botha? So that they will all look the same too? What's the point right? It will only increase more troubles for themselve.
Once we lose our pride, confident and everything... we will be humble and after they let us have this kind of mentality, after that... even if we are not botha, but we will still be the old botha infront of our superior.
It's a psychology thing... I think.
Saturday, July 02, 2005
3rd book out
I'm back again... mood slightly better, heard that something happened and that makes my life easier.
Hm.. next week is the last week for my prep course, the week after next is my confinement week as I will be going through my police training. Will be learning lots of things, Taekwando, weapons training: melee weapon, rifle and pistol training, life saving for swimming and also we need to study the law modules.
How's everyone? I have been very self centered these few weeks... so sorry... I hope after I post out, I can still be your blessing... ok? See you..
I'm back again... mood slightly better, heard that something happened and that makes my life easier.
Hm.. next week is the last week for my prep course, the week after next is my confinement week as I will be going through my police training. Will be learning lots of things, Taekwando, weapons training: melee weapon, rifle and pistol training, life saving for swimming and also we need to study the law modules.
How's everyone? I have been very self centered these few weeks... so sorry... I hope after I post out, I can still be your blessing... ok? See you..
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