Evil and Righteousness

"Evil and Righteousness."

Both are in my hands.

"Throw one and hold one."

"You need both to satisfied the world."

"So? The world will make you fall."

"Come... turn back to God."

Awake

Who am I? I am Emil Lim, mighty pirate.

Outside emptiness

In the past I was seeking emptiness, now I am making something outside the emptiness and I can feel something, I can feel the pain, for a reason.

Seeking emptiness

Seeking in the emptiness? Make something outside the emptiness.

Was lost

I was lost in the path, but now I found the way out and continue to find the flag.

Where is the flag?

Still I am not sure where is the flag. No I will never give up, I will find the flag!

The flag

Somehow I find that the flag might not be located at the front of this path... I may need to do a turning at the front.

This path suddenly gives me the creep, I am struggling because of this.

A mark at August 2003

I'm leaving a mark here:

I will reach the flag soon.

Emil

Lesson from big stone

Finally, I have put down a big stone. I have submitted my project, of course by the streangth of the Lord. Wow so happy... I learn a very important lesson for those projects, what lesson? 'START FROM YOUR LITTLE GIFT' Faithful to small matters.

Enviroment

Enviroment will be changing non stop, why worry? Just treasure what you have now... and when you lose it, treasure your new enviroment, treasure.... treasure... treasure.... because, already the replacements have been fixed. And there is one who never change, our God. Treasure him for he has already allowed everthing to came to passed. For a reason or another, for your lovely shape of heart. Build your relationship with Him, it is worth it.

Crushed

I am crushed, yet I am still alive.

The resistance is heavy... anyway, it is expected.

There is no turning back, I must run... or I will face the consequences.

I need faith to move on. Thank God that I am still moving on, at the moment.

Yes, I will pass this planet.

Light and heavy

A person is heavy when he/she is doing what he/she likes.

Do what you like and dun like. Here is the formula

Like + Dun Like = Light

Time management

Mr Tired, a sleep killer.

He is defeated in the bed time and now he target the timetable.

How many of us can manage our time?

Should we stop ourselves from eating too much vitamins?

Low morale

My confidence is lost in the desert.

I'm trying very hard to get it back.

Worries are stuck inside my heart.

Is this somekind of mental illness? Hope not.

To fight himself

Ginseng rising up and falling down. (Ren Shen Qi Qi Luo Luo)

I am rising up once again.

To face this monitor infront of me and fight for marks!

Sigh... I talk to computers everyday, everyday trying out those programming stuff and installing those complicating software...

Maybe now I am behaving like an iceboy, I don't really have the time to chat with my friends anymore, I just call them when I need them, to get ideas for my project, to ask them why can't I install this or install that. Now I dun really accept ideas from people because I'm not the old me, I want to make something from myself. Now I'm not a copycat no.. I'm not.. (Hmm those ideas I received from friends might help if I really can't...) "HAHAHA... LOOK AT YOU... You are still a copycat!" (Oh no... Its Mr Discourage.)

Down and running

Ginseng rising up and falling down. (Ren Shen Qi Qi Luo Luo)

Some people are falling down, yet they still can run at the same time.

This is a very good way to save your time, but please ask yourself where you are heading.

Mr Discourage

Ginseng rising up and falling down. (Ren Shen Qi Qi Luo Luo)

I am falling down at the moment.

Life in school is good.

But that dosen't mean I have defeated Mr Discourage.

I'll be fine.

Mr Tired

Life in school is good! Everything is just so good!

Mr Tired is Tired of catching me. "I'll be waitiing for you, this weekend!" Oh no is that Mr Tired?

Sleeping time

Hey new world! I am near! I will make myself ready!

No no Mr tired, you can't make me you.

Because I'm going to sleep now! Yes NOW! AHAHAHAHAHA!!!

AHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

Ouch again

Ouch, study life is near.

Then study.

But I dun like to study.

Then like it.

But I dun want to pressure myself.

Pressure is just a pressure, can pressure kill?

Yes.

If pressure can kill, what cannot kill?

Safe entertainment.

You try the safe entertainment, you will still die.

Why?

The killer is Mr Boring.

Ouch

Ouch, study life is near.

Ouch, its like I got so much things I need to do and attend.

No, I'm not that busy, but spending some of the time to think what will happen next.

No, no good...

Element

I'm not an element.

I'm a mixture.

Let me become an element.

Touching heaven opening gifts.

I'll use it for your glory.

Is love mushy?

Them: Hey when is your birthday?

Me: Don't buy me a birthday cake and sing the brithday song to me, its mushy.

Them: Huh? (Shocked)

Hmm.. Am I allergic to love? How come love is becoming so mushy to me?

Maybe it is because people don't show it to me. No really, I didn't say I'm lack of love and I didn't say I don't need love.

I'm sure people will show their love to me soon and that means I can tell whether I love it or not soon.

Bad mood

I didn't do it on purpose.

I know I am forgetful.

Why people can be so ugly when bad mood is with them?

Give me the strength to tolerate.

Ginseng rising up and falling down

Them: Hey! Wow... The spike is gone, cool man! Now you look like Yurin.

Me: Oh... the one who plays with blue fire.

Them: Hey Qi Long, how come you never comb your hair? So messy.

Me: I don't have the time. (I was lying, I just can't make my hair stand)

Them: Nice what...

In life there is happiness and sadness. Ginseng rising up and falling down (Ren Shen Qi Qi Luo Luo)

When you are down on the floor, some people will help you up and some will just run over your body.

So be prepared to receive good and bad comments from people, or you will waste your time lying on top of the floor.

Tomorrow I'm flying to US, because _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _!!! (oops too early)

Pastor Loh

Thank God he had the faith to pray for the sick, but the virus spreaded to him...

he is now no more in this world. I respect him.

He is a man of God, his speech strengthened me.

I'm sad, but he is happy, he is now in the kingdom of God. I should be happy for him.

Sense of love

Talking with a group of friends.

Them: What type of girls do you like?

Me: Girls who gives me pleasure.

Them: (Shocked)

Me: I mean we dun need a reason to love someone right?

Them: Oh I see... better be careful because your sense is not always right.

Me: Erm... the sense of love is unique, I think I can identify them.

Them: Lol...

The old me and the new me

Me: (Walking in to the classroom, wave to them) Hello!

Coursemates: (Turn his head to me, and then turn back)

Sigh my coursemates dun seems to be very friendly, what is wrong with my face?

You want me to stay with them for years??? No way!!! Now I'm thinking of transfering, Sigh... my friend is right, should follow him.

Sigh... whats wrong with me? I used to be strong.

The old me

1. Do what I think is right, like fighting, scolding, bullying and skipping lessons.

2. Cunning

3. Crazy

4. Daring

The new me

1. Friendly

2. Quite shy compared to that old me

3. A bit soft hearted

4. Self blaming

Oh no, I just realise that I really change alot. Sometimes I really admire the old me, I am now weak, sigh... hao ren zhen nan zuo (It is hard to be a good human).

I didn't say I am perfect but alot better compared to the old me, thank God for that.

Love with haste

M Juzzy: She changed her hp suddenly.. I dunno what number.. I wan to find her to tell her that I really like her alot and if I have a chance I'll never make her leave me.

Me: Ic... Thanks for sharing.

M Juzzy: Okay.

This friend of mine is still searching for his "her", there is still a chance. What about you?

If you have missed your chance to win the heart of your lover. Don't be sad for you are qualified to sing this poem with joy.

Me? Sigh... I'm not qualified but hmm... is this somekind of warning to me? (Just joking) "No, you are not joking" (Yes I am joking) "No, you are not joking" (Yes I am joking)... dosen't matter enjoy the poem.

Let me love you with haste today
For it is already too late
Because you will be leaving tomorrow

The fallen blossoms
Are the soil my love becomes

In fact, a certain beauty
Most elegant and precious
Like fragrant oil in a jade bottle.....

It is this kind of love
That turns the experience
of our rugged journey
Into noble and precious memories

The moon is pure and clear
Our hearts are facing each other
how can you not understand

by Jane Chong (Zhang Qian Yu)

Orientation@03

A step closer to a new world.

Exciting, lots of question mark is inside the ballon on the top of my head.

What type of classmates do I expect?

Will they make me fall like the previous war? I'm tired of these bunch of classmates, I call them "Bad influcence".

How I hope my classmates will be as hardworking as an ant, I need them. Of course I really hope that they are as helpful as a dolphin.

Now now now, its too early for me to think so much, hmm... I'm behaving like a theif, sneaking around the house at this hour. Sigh doing nothing. Better sleep now.

Tommorrow will be a better day.

"No! Time is running out."

A cup of teh-o (Red tea)

This afternoon I was drinking a cup of teh-o (Red tea) while having my lunch at the food court. I finished everything accept my teh o (Red tea), wanted to enjoy it slowly. The teh-o (Red tea) was really great, it brings me to a new world, a world which is peaceful, relaxing, I put my worries aside and enjoy, just then I saw Galvin (my secondary school friend) walking pass the food court. Duhhh..., time to face the reliaty, woke up from the dream and I was shouting his name, waving at him but I coudn't catch his attendtion! I tried to finish my teh-o (Red tea) as fast as I could so that I could catch up with him.

Sigh... Emil... Emil... sometimes you gotto stop your dream and face the reliaty, learn your lesson from that cup of teh-o (Red tea), don't let the chance slip away infront of you. Be alert! Sigh I always dream at the battlefield, I was really lucky to be alive. Really, I thank God for the chances and warning. Don't get me wrong, you should enjoy tea, that is my personal lesson.

My friend was wearing the ITE school uniform, rushing... and so was I. Sigh... Singaporean is always so busy, even after their work/school they still need to rush to somewhere... But where? How I know!!! For me I rush back home to rest, when I'm tired everything seems to be meaningless to me.

My dream

One of my friends ask me "What is your dream?" I don't have the gut to tell him, I think he will laugh at me. My dream is to find a good job and proof to everyone that Singapore is not that difficult to find a job. Just upgrade yourself, don't be too picky, don't give up and I'm sure you can find a good job. (I'm very confident at the moment)

I see

I was talking with someone, that someone is someone who don't respect the own language he is speaking.

Me: Oh I see...
Someone: See me?
Me: Yes.
Me: I see you.
Someone: You see me?
Me: Yes.
Me: I see you.
Someone: For what?
Me: For some reason.
Someone: You in love with me?
Someone: Haiz...
Someone: So sad.
Me: You do you think?
Someone: You think you do?
Me: (Looking at the floor)
Someone: Tree can talk? Sad... I must be dreaming.
Me: Where?
Someone: You need water?
Me: What do you think?
Someone: No need.
Someone: Got rain water.
Me: Oh...
Someone: You see.
Someone: I know.
Someone: You see me.
Me: (Looking at the floor) Saw you!
Someone: I haven't die don't use past tense.

Shoe lace joke

This is a classic joke. It suddenly came to my mind: "DO YOU WANT MY SHOE LACE TO BE YOUR BLIND FOLD????????????????????????????????"

O level

Me, An ITE graduate went back to secondary school to observe the world of O level.

What I see from that world are happy and sad, happy buddies cheering and sad buddies falling down, so what will happen to me in that new world? It is all in my hand.

The number Three

Some people cannot cope with their stress and so, they end up like this stranger I met in one of our local food centre.

Stranger: I count 1 to Three you better leave this place at once!
Me: Why?
Stranger: Cause I dun like the Three in your shirt.
Me: Oh? Three is my favourite number because I'm born in day no. 3. (I'm actually lying)
Stranger: Oh ic... sorry Mr Three!
Me: Why?
Stranger: I was just fooling around.
Stranger: Anyway how you find my speech?
Me: Not bad.
Me: Quite thrilling.
Stranger: You support peace?
Me: Ya.
Stranger: May peace be forever.
Me: Did u try it on others?
Stranger: Yes.
Stranger: I would do that.
Me: Huh?! You hope to quarell with them?
Stranger: Nope.
Stranger: I want peace.
me: Ohh.. doing a survey huh?
Stranger: Nope.
Stranger: Just leave me alone okay?
Me: Okay.
Stranger: You are irritating.
Me: Okay peace be with you...
Stranger: Same to you too.

New World

I'm now inside a train, a train that is approaching to a new world, a world which is not peaceful, I'm just lucky to be alive in the previous war.

This time I will do my best, but how many times did I tell myself that I will do my best? There is no turning back. I'm awake.

Let us fight our own war together.

Age group

Few mins ago I was chatting with Beng (a friend of mine) I told him that one of my friend transfered to other school because of the age group problem, then Beng told me that he must be a stupid childish boy which I find that it is quite true. I strongly believe that personality mismatch is the main reason for people cannot get along with each other.

Hmm... At this May I might be studying with a group of people who are older than me so ermm.. can I get along with them?

The trip to Johor

That place reminds me of someone, I just found out that person is something to me. How fast our minds can change, and how fast we can destroy what we hope and what we want. Please think of the penalty before changing your plans, save yourself.