Remaining free period

This is my last week to relax...

There is a piano test in two weeks time and after that day... I'll be away for a while....

I'm enlisted for ns, going in to the police force in 14th June. So make sure you dun threaten me or attack me, it is a very serious offence.

Just joking...

It's another stage of life.

My reputation as a guy


Girls... I'm quite a nice guy k?

There is this toilet I need to go everyday in my workplace, it is a very nice toilet... clean and tidy... also you will see a signboard that is specially made for kids I think, its located at the top of the toilet bowl. It says "Boys, please do not mess up the toilet. Please aim accurately."

Hey! I'm the only guy in the office k! Hai.. gers... so insensitive. Not all the guys are like that okie? As if I mess up the toilet bowl before.. sigh...


It's my reputation

Female Colleague (Teacher): See Lian, you want me to buy anything back?

Female Colleague 2 (PA): Yes, anything.

Female Colleague (Teacher): Okie... I have a class to teach at 4pm, So I need to buy back my lunch now. Emil, you want anything?

Me: No thanks... I prefer to eat outside.

Female Colleague (Teacher): Oh... I dun... coz there are quite alot of "things"

Emil: What thing?

Female Colleague (Teacher): Too much... nan ren (guys), that day one of the guys in the coffeeshop was smiling at me.. he thought I was looking at him!

Female Colleague 2 (PA): LOL! You are too pretty...

Female Colleague (Teacher): No.. anyway if we have more than one girl in the group, then those guys normally will not stare at us.

Me: Haha... ("Guys... guys... guys... stop throwing my face.")

Missing Fears


My Workdesk, hehe... taking photos infront of my boss in office hours. Other staffs were discussing the work, I was facing the pc monitor too... they thought that I'm working. Haha..

I'm working in a very famous company "Match Teach" as a IT Admin cum Clerk cum General work staff, you can find lots of testimonies in the media. Saw the newspaper today? World bookfair, previous year... the response for our products was very good! Yeah.. My focus is in the exhibition work, need to create some sort of advertisment for them.

By the way, let me tell you more about my boss "Alice" she is the author of the 5 volumes famous Math Teach book. Also the founder of Match Teach tution centre and she conducted quite alot of seminars to guide parents what is the right way to teach math. Talking about this... you know primary school math is really tough nowadays... I look through the questions and I can answer none! My boss say even a U graduate might failed the primary school exam paper. It's terrible.. should thank our mum. Haha... you know some questions can use simultaneous equation to solve it! Of course.. we should't teach primary school students to use that formula, we must help them to understand.

Her way of teaching is really unique, even me... who really hates math alot... can understand her teaching. She is also training teachers for her own tution centre, she took about 2 years to train a teacher.. wow... that's really long.. but I believe all her teachers is as good as her.

Just feel very amazing for me to work there. Why?

1. I went there for sales job but they told us that they need a IT admin too, just nice I wanted to gain some experience in this area.

2. There were alot of U graduates and A level graduates and I'm the first one to be employed.

3. I'm not that good in IT.

4. I'm not the creative kind.

5. It is a Math school and I hate Math.

6. I dun like teachers since young, because they are the one who stress me up. (btw it's nice working with them.)

7. The boss agreed to hire me more than a week.

8. The lady boss (not married) is very nice to her staffs, I really respect her alot.

9. I dun feel left out though I'm the only guy in the office.

10. They trust me.

11. My boss shouted "hallelujah!" when she received good news.

So can you give me a reason why they employed me? (Look up to the sky.)

IT Job

I got a IT job! Thank God! Its another IT job... not the one I mentioned earlier...

I went there for sales job breifing for world book fair, and they told me they need IT staff. Just nice!

I told God that I can't wait, need the answer by this week and my prayer is answered this morning... I'm under provasion for one week, if Im not good enough they will just kick me off. Haha... I believe I can do it!

Healthy Gossip

Me: Hey Sis... so what's the gossip about me you spread?

Sis: Finally... You talk to me!

Me: ...

Sis: You are in a growing stage.

Me: What?

Sis: You getting in to the society and I can sense that you are becoming diffrent, not the cute boy I knew before.

Me: Sometimes I just purposly act cute infront of you, actually I am not that childish.

Sis: I know you can be cute infront of others, but deep inside your heart is changing. Becoming more mature, it's a growing process... I really hope you won't change to the worst because now is crucial stage and a confusing stage. You will struggle to choose what you want to become and things like that.

Still.. I want to thank this sis of mine, maybe she is right? Something just trigger me to change.. At least she can sense it. Thank you sis.

IT Job?

Okie.. enough about the sad thing tonight, so I'm writting my third entry for tonight...

I just found a IT job... Surprisingly!

You know this is my "speciality", haha... I still need to go for the interview, but I have confidence that I can make it... Anyway... I always feel very lacking in this area, many people was shocked that I am educated in IT school... I know... I'm close to be an IT idiot. But... I still have exp in those software thingy k? I'm not that bad after all... just not that good. Haha... okie.. fine to those who think I am covering for myself.

But nowadays... it is not easy to find an IT job, if I really can get it... then I think it is really a blessing from heaven. It's really good for an IT fresh graduate to gain exp for IT line. All the best to myself tomorrow. :)

Hate

Okie last entry I wrote about my feelings for this old blog of mine, now instantly I'm writting another entry. You must be wondering why I am feeling so emotional to my blog tonight right? Okie... Because most of the time I will have alot to say when something bad happened, after I spit out words that are trapped deep inside of this heart of mine... I'll feel alot better.

First... Thanks for cooling me down, you know who you are. :)

Someone make me very angry tonight, and before that... I am still pitying that person, is my heart too soft? Or that person just dunno how to appreciate me? I didn't say I'm very good or what.. I'm not perfect! He is forcing me to harden my heart, he is forcing hatred coming in to my heart!

Maybe you guys dunno me well enough, in the past... there's none I fear... not even my dad! Not even my bro, my friends... If I'm not happy.. I'll just fight them all, yes physcially.

And even right now.. this kind of characteristic is still inside of me, just that now I am more timid and I can control myself more. I must say no one can easily make me mad, but someone... is really good at making me mad.. and when I'm mad thats it! I'll die together with the other person...

Nonono... I should't have say this kind of thing, of course... Jesus can stop me from doing this kind of thing... but I just felt that there's a war happening deep inside of me. That person makes me shivers... with anger.. and he is the only one right now at my late youth. I have to deny myself.

Belated The Black Road's 3rd Anniversary Night

My blog is about 1 and a half years old since I published online. Hmm.. I know I am abit lazy, didn't decorate much and I didn't insert the tag board. I hope I'll do it one day.

First I would like to say blog is not my diary or what, it is just a place for me to talk, whether you accept it or not... I can raise up my views and things like that, k... it might not be right, but at least there are readers of my views.

I want to thank you guys... for reading my views and stuffs all these years. Hmm.. so let me celebrate my blog's birthday today, okie I know it is abit too late... but still I think I should celebrate... Happy Brithday to The Black Road Happy Birthday To You!!!

Thanks for reading, some of my buddies... like lost contact, if you are still reading my blog.. just want to say I won't forget you and thank you for everything.

The Black Road - Till the day I leave this place, Till the day of eternity, Till the day I complete the journey of.... "The Black Road" you will read the last chapter of my days in The Black Road. See you in heaven?

Guitar dream

Hey do I look nice that day on the stage? Standing up on the stage with the guitar... I am the big star that day in the wedding. Ooops... Just joking...

My guitar sounds okay? Guess so... many people give me positive comments.. anyway... guitarist is always the coolest supporting role i think... though many might not agree.

I've waited for so long.. After Michelle's wedding till now how many months have passed? I forgot... but I dun always get the chance to play it. I'm really happy.

I love doing supporting role, just like the cool supporting archer in the "some" show.

I dun need people to notice me, I love to support... but I think in reliaty we can't choose what we want.