So small but beautiful...

I am so small... just like a child...

Often I choose the wrong path...

I look so stupid...

I look so stubborn...

I have nothing good to show...

But I am true... To

every souls...

especially to my father...

I have nothing to hide...

For what can this world offer for all I want is You.

Shocking Stock

Oh... So it is true... My friend, (sorry I dun wan to say his name though some may know him) same age with me is married and got himself a kid... Oh no... Hahaha... Funny yet shocking...

Wow... becoming a father at this age... very challenging... Haha...

(Imagine myself becomes a father)
Me: Guai hor guai hor... daddy is going to be away for NS after my last term at ADIT, you must listen to mummy okie?
(Going in to NS)
Wife and kid crying while this young daddy Emil entering the gates of the camp. How pathetic...

All the best to our friend... lets encourage him when we see him, maybe I can be his 2nd papa... lol...

Saw

So what if I found the thing I need to know?

Can I change anything?

No... Let's get some real action...

Something must be done...

"Now is the time. You! Come out..."

Few mins for a chance

Hmm.. I lost something from the past... I need get it back.. now...

In the Coffee club... Perheps I can find it there.

No.. it is not the club... it is the company.. the people...

That reminds me more about my past... It will gives me the clue...

"For what can they give, for all I want is you."

Alive

Where am I?

Things are diffrent from before...

Seems like a dead city, but I saw a well containing living water and I saw someone that is alive! I need to live...

Jammed

How's the feeling of skiping school? Good...

My result... how dissapointing...

How's the feeling of alone at home? Good...

At least... I can feel peace in my heart...

How's the feeling of restriction, being forced to be somewhere you dun want to be? Jammed.

I tried to be cheerful, but things are getting worse...

Leave

I hope I can get out of this place when I keep walking.

Silent park

It has come to an end.

It has come to an end.

It has come to an end.

End, end, end.

Enough, enough and ENOUGH!

My eyes are close. Until someday.. it might open again.

I need rest, totally quiet, alone... with God. I can't cut off myself from this world, but I... can close my eyes for hours... and rest in God. Silent park.

Night cat

I expect myself to do more today... but sad to say I failed to finish what I want to finish, but anyway I have finished what my lecturer require us to do.

I am really tired, I need some sleep... I'm doing things non-stop today after school, together with Timothy.. we went to download files.. after that do abit of project then I have to play guitar for cell group... every friday. Then tomorrow got morning lesson and after that I need to go for prac, after that I still got something on... Haii... Okie looks like tonight (Sat night) I have to sleep abit late. Sunday morning still need to wake up early for yet another practice, after that still have something on...

Okie... lucky I'm a cat... night cat...you guys should know me very well... haha... ermm.. I have already change the habit... I can't totally dun sleep... standard drop already.. its a good thing... its a good thing.

Thanks to you

Hey thanks for your testimony and encouragement... You really understand me alot, all the things you wrote in the testimony are very true.

Perheps I'm wrong, I thought I'm on my own.. but God send you to encourage me. Just want to say... it really helps alot, thanks for the friendship.

At first I was shocked when I heard your problem, frankly speaking.. I was quite discourage to hear that at first, but I thank God you still know where to go... for the holy spirit is in you. Haha.. amazing... both of us are inside a problem but we still can exchange positive things together. Yes, we will stand.. and face our greatest enermy (ourselves). Though we are not from the same church, though we are not studying in the same school, though both of us are inside a diffrent enviroment, let our friendship last forever.

Project is always a nitemare to us, but we can do it... nothing can distract us and nothing can bring us down... okie time to continue the project! With peace.

Go on

No one can give me

No one can help me

No one can see me

No one can touch me

No one can make a diffrence to my helpless feeling

I need to help myself, I need to move on.

Shoot out!

Caring.. Guys or gals?

Was discussing with someone about who is more caring? Guys or gals? Of course I will support guys right? But to speak the truth, I think gals are more caring than guys though I kept telling her that guys can be as caring as gals. Gals are more sentitive and guys normally don't show their love. Not forgetting that we have some gentlemens that will be extra caring to gals, as gals are emotional and weak physically. Proud to say that! Guys keep it up!

Wedding dinner tonight

Finally, one of our young adults will be promoted to Married Status tonight, wedding buffet dinner special huh? Hehe... quite excited... Congrats! More promotion ceremonies are coming soon, you know who you are haha!

New flat

Finally, After 14 years... we will be moving to a new house soon! Just visited that place few days ago, we got a gracefully looking auntie neighbour that provides us quite alot of information about our flat, very helpful and polite! So are they, her two attractive daughters... Our flat is filled with young people, most of them are students.. I love it! Will try to make friends with all of them! Saw a pretty cat that walks like a model (Cat walk), the owner of the cat is a cute malay girl that waves with me... So friendly... Saw a hero malay guy that will protect his neighbour (I think so... can tell from his face, but must build a good relationship with him)... Saw alot of handsome and pretty youth walking around the void deck.. wow... (Warning: Dun judge the book by its cover) just like me.. wo hen chou ke shi wo hen wen rou right? Hahaha... okie... just joking...

We have vending machines and atm below... that will be verryy convenient!

Blocked Investigation

I can't open my mouth

I can't express it in my old ways...

No

Not anymore.. not anymore...

Let me walk the only way.

The heart deep inside

I don't understand myself.. And I want to understand myself. Now I'm going in to my heart.. I'll let you know what I see when I'm out.

Artistic people

Most of the Artistic people (esp musicians) will behave strangely at times. They often spend their time walking around, or at the room alone. That dosen't mean that musicians don't talk, they do... some are real good jokers but they just need time to be alone, when reach certain time.. their mood will swing..

Most of the people thought they have attitude problems, but they are just a bunch of people that need help. People say only musicians can cure musicians, only musicians that came out from their old self (just like anti biotic) know the key of getting out. If nobody is going to help them, then they must save themselve.

I want to go...

I'm living in a diffrent world

Longing that some miracles will come

So that I can enter someplace I want...

The day will come... the day will come.

A request, not forgetting my purpose here.

Both of my pc are down, now I'm using my friend's pc... Recently... Quite alot of things happened... And thank God I am just positive enough to go on... At least there is still happiness in my life, it is enough already... I'm just a simple guy... I dun expect much in my life.. Really... Really... Just a simple request.... just one... hmm... okie... I'm doing well though haha... alot of things didn't come out as I expect... but I guess that's life... just need to let go, continue... and get better! No pain no gain!

I'm not immune to pain.

I can't stop my sweat coming out from my palms.

I can't change the temperature of my body.

But I can change the way I think.

This world is much more meaningful and beautiful when I see my purpose of living.

August 2004

There is much more to learn, there is much more to go through, Well... How am I? Think it is already quite sometime since I last talk about myself...

Much better, happier, friendlier(BHB), cutier (BHB), gentier(BHB), Carrier(BHB), cheerfuier(BHB)...

Hm... have to forget the pass and continue with hope.. Well quite a few things happened recently.

1. UFO... Though it may be quite a outdated news for some people... But haha... anyway.. I saw you a UFO not long ago, very round and quite big too with red light blinking... It cloaks and dissapear slowly... Sounds crazy I know but ermm thats true.. Well.. I belive the existence of UFO.. But some say it might harm you spirtually... So my advice is dun get too close to those UFO and alien thingy.

2. New guitarists... Haha I know I seldom upload church stuff here, but I think it is really a great joy to see people successful in learning guitar, what a hardworking sister... Hm... I'm very very proud of her although I didn't do much but just told her what I know... Now she can even teach too!! More to come more to come hehe.. Multiply!

3. Sold my house... I welcome your visitation to my new house.... Hehe...

Things come and go easily, just let God take control and Stay close with Him. Move on guys!

Real tired

I'm... So... so tired... Argh... I really... really.. dunno whether I can make it or not... There is just so many things left for me to do... Argh... Time is running out.. Those stupid hospital appointments are really wasting my time... Why all come together in my busy week? I got projects, presentation, test to do.. and the hospital appointments so accurate all come in this week... And then I still have to quickily finish my test early to rush to hospital for appointment.  Well, I went to the hospital late but lucky the doc still there, she told me that I still have to attend further appointments few months later... Arghh... Hai...

I am no more... Gone... Well before that... I just want to say I... I..................

Jazz

jazz   

Music.

A style of music, native to America, characterized by a strong but flexible rhythmic understructure with solo and ensemble improvisations on basic tunes and chord patterns and, more recently, a highly sophisticated harmonic idiom.
Big band dance music.

Slang.

Animation; enthusiasm.
Nonsense.
unspecified things: brought the food and all the jazz to go with it. -Taken from Dictionary

"Moving from Bedok to Bedok... Sounds like Jazz...  Now I'm doing my project in the middle of the night, I'm doing a multimedia program, a Music Dictionary program, doing the Jazz section now... And hope I can do some Jazz to gain more marks, well... Like objects moving around things like that.. heh... I'm not that Jazz enough to work on my project, well... time to continue my Jazz section and some other Jazz." -Taken from The Jazz moments Author: Emil Lim or Lin Qilong

Hope

Days of my childhood, Happy and got nothing to worry...

Really miss those days... but as I started to grow, I started to see the problems around me... family problems, I'm lack of Dad's love... Of course it is because he dosen't really have much time for me and we seldom have chance to see each other.

I dun blame him...

Alot of my friends told me that they won't leave me but they left me, some even betrayed me... I dun blame them... Maybe I'm not a good friend too.

Yes maybe I'm really lack of love... Until one day I experienced the perfect love, the unfailing love of God. But once in a while I still look back, when I face problems, stressed and stuff like that..

These few days really have quite alot of things happened to me, maybe it is just in my mind... Maybe the enviroment affect quite abit.. it caused me to look back to the past once again... But thank God... Something happened... It brings me hope... I'm completely set free... Hope enter my life.. For the first time.. I'm so happy... Maybe this is my happiest moments in my life after my childhood days... I have become very positive nowadays... I felt so diffrent.

Last day of the month

LCD

My monitor spoil... so I borrow my bro's LCD Monitor for me to do project and other things hahaha... Must say do project then he will lend me... But really... I did.

Anyway LCD is alot better than those normal monitors, those normal monitors can make my eyes real tired. Now starting back to have online mood haha...

Moving

I might move to Jurong or Toa Pa Yoh, at first I am unhappy with their decision... but on second thought, actually we need money quite urgently... We dun have much savings. So maybe.. I dun understand their stress.

Well now i'm kinda like dun care already... Anywhere... As long as it is the right choice go ahead.

Project M

Finally... They have become serious about moving... Didn't even care about my opinions... majiority win anyway... Well... I just hope that they will change their mind before they make payment which is on next month.

Heh... I am ready... Already I know this day will come sooner or later.

Few results

Today I skip school... I'm sick, so felt very tired this morning... I'm really tired of pc... sleep until 2 something today... Hahaha... Sooo good.

Medical Result: Should be infection... Need to go for yet another checkup in September.

School Result: Passed all the modules, I can get my diploma soon!

The 4th level


Newbie of 4th level. Eh... Looking confident.


the days in ubin resort, in 4th level. look at the 1st person... from the right, wow.. man.. what a smile... (Zx... Our "True Feelings" writter is MIA. Might be scouting around nearby)

I have been to the 4th level quite a while, nothing much down here... Sad and Happy moments just don't last. Just like a empty cup longing to be filled everyday... May the pure water of life fall into the cup and make the cup live with excitement.

Unite

This friend of mine know him for a few months, I like him alot not because he is very hepful and always help me alot in class, just feel that he has something special... until today I found out the reason! He is a christian, thank God. Always... I have christians around me.

He is a worship leader in The Church of the Good Chapel, an anglican church. Suddenly, both of us can click together quite well... started to talk about our church, talk about by this time both of us should be practising songs in church... Blah blah blah... Hahaha... Well guess all of us in christ should be this way... Becuase we are all one in christ there is just one similar thing to talk about no matter how diffrent we are. United.

Good but dangerous

I'm starting get used to it, things are getting better and better. As I continue this road, I found that this path leads me to a valley of ice. Weird kind of road, I really have alot of questions of the road ahead. Why worry about tomorrow? Heh... Because day by day... I see the changes, bit by bit...

The only way to solve is to face it.. And I will be free... To a new place, a place that I can experience real adventure.

Welcome to my class!

Active Directory... Dosen't really catch my attendtion... Now she is trying to explain... I am typing what I'm thinking infront of my lecturer... As she is walking around the class... Now Object Security... Yea it dosen't catch my attendtion too... Ha.. my classmates are coming in now 15 mins after the break, they are really a bunch of people who really know how to enjoy life... now my friend who is just beside me is trying to log in to MSN... Give up man... It won't work... You are not the admin! Hahaha... Before that he was sending SMS using Suntel WOW.lk... Now troubleshooting tip? End of slides??? Anymore?? Setting Services Security? I better concentrate now...

Group Policies

You can create template to save troubles... (Orghh.... Not bad lah.)

Example Areas Covered by Group Policies

-Event log tracking policies, you can check how many time the user log in and stuffs like that (Hmm.. quite useful)

Setting Up Security Templates

As a admin... we can set some retrictions like only allow the user to log in three times only... (Hahaha! Isn't that stupid?? For what?)

IP Security

Skynet? A set of IP-based secure communications and encryption standards created through the internet Eng Task Force (IETF) (Cool... Hahaha... Nice name...)

Ip Security Policies

Client- Respond only

Server- Request security

Secure Server- Require security (Yea end!)

Lecturer: Shall I minus mark for those who never pass up the proposal?

Classmate1: Yes... 5 Marks..

Me: Hey! No!

Lecturer: I'll give you guys another chance... Next week...

Me: Heng ah... Haha

Haha... Dunno why I so bo liao today.. If I dun do that today.. I'll fall asleep for sure.

Hunger, thirst

Woke up at 10 something in the morning...

Feeling so tired... So tired... Very tired... Speechless.

I just feel like writting but I dunno what to write.

I'll just write something...


Like a dry cup long for water, like a desert long for rain, like a bird in a cage, like a lost boy.

No one can understand why he is doing this, his thinking, his wish to fly to a new world, his cold heart for people, he was struggling for a breathe. Suddenly, when he closed his eyes... Thinking of giving up... in that black moments... when his eyes were closed... he felt a warm touch from Him and say "I understand, I know everything, I care for you."

he was speechless but his eyes were filled with tears... suddenly he managed to say something "Keep me in your arm, my best friend and never let me go." Like a dry cup filled with water, like a desert filled with rain, like a free boy.

"Amazing grace, how sweet the sound that save a wrentch like me." - Song title: Amazing Grace

One thing I must do today

Last week to enjoy the holiday, so fast... Hehe... I haven't enjoy much yet... Nevermind... this week gotto enjoy but before enjoying... I really need to go buy those project materials and stuff... In the previous year, didn't bother to get those stuff ready before school reopen... so always chiong to the shops in my urgent moments. Crazy... Hahah... Sometimes even run out of floppy disk, so I went to format my chinese star disk ahaha.... so pathetic.

Singaporean's Slang

Hehe... Singaporean is shoooo cute! Don't you think so? This afternoon my teacher gave me one of the City Harvest Church album "Life", man... So nice! Heard some of their songs before, but I didn't know that those songs are composed by them!! Anyway... when I came back home...

Played the cd......

Familiar singaporean slang came out from the speaker...

lol! Just like our national day songs... Example like "Count on me Singapore!" Haha... I like it alot... So cute! Its unique... No one can copy us, we are so special!! I'm proud to be a singaporean... leh! Oops I'm not promoting singlish okie!

One desire

Just learn a new song from my teacher today. Here the chorus it really touch my heart.

"This is my cry! My one desire, just to be where you are Lord... Now and forever!

It's more than a song, my one desire, is to be with you, is to be with you.... Jesus..."

When I sing this song... I felt the touch of God, touching my heart... I felt so warm... I felt so happy... No one can give me this kind of joy... This kind of relationship... My best friend... Indeed... My one and only desire is to be with you... Jesus. I really mean it.

Talk things out

Few days ago...

Me: Didn't know this will happen.

Him: Since when you know?

Me: (Thinks: You didn't give me the chance to change...)

Him: You are always the same.

Me: (Thinks: Really it is not my fault today, you don't trust me anymore? Fine since you asked for it... I'll let you see the worst of me, I'll change to the worst... You force me to walk this way.)

Her: Ya lor... He dun listen one... He is Emil lor, since when he listen?

Me: (Thinks: Wow... Everyone is against me)

Just a few negative thoughts flash through me at that moment.

I'll try to be more positive now.

1st counter negative thought: Today... I nearly know, just that I'm unlucky. I'll never give up!

2nd counter negative thought: No... I'm not the same. Well... But still I can avoid this if I am careful enough.

3rd counter negative thought: Hey sis... You dunno what have happened between me and him! SHUT UP!! SHUT UP!! <- Ok... I have failed to counter the third negative thought... Why? I can't stand the way he corrected me... Or I am just very sensitive... Think the best way to solve the problem is to talk things out... Will find a chance.

Final term for diploma level is coming to an end

Tired tired tired... Tired tired tired... One more project left.

Can't burn midnight oil today, So have to burn midnight oil tomorrow... Sat is the dateline. So close so close... The term is going to end!!!

Anyway... My CMPB Medical Screening latest update, need to go for yet another checkup at 20 April. What now what now? Hope they have something new to tell me.

The sale

8 Days Ago @ School office, 1530 hrs

Female CS Officer: Yes?

Me: I would like to register for my course for next term.

Female CS Officer: Did you look for your consultant?

Me: Is she here?

Female CS Officer: *Pek Chek expression* What's her name?

Me: Lynn.

*Ring* *Ring*

Female CS Officer: Sorry... I need to answer the call, (Talking on the phone) Hello... Orgh... Ta Bu Zai... Ta.. Ta... Ni Deng Yi Xia Ah. Oei Richard! Not at her desk how to say ah in mandarin? Orgh.. Ok... Er.. Hello Ta Bu Zai Ta De Zuo Wei... Ah ok bye. (Hang up)

Female CS Officer: (Back to me) Okay... Nevermind... Tell me what course you want.

Me: Erm... I need to know more about this Developing interactive web sites systems module.

Female CS Officer: *Pek Chek expression again* Sigh... That's why I say you should look for your consultant.

Me: Erm... I've lost my Hp together with her numbers.

Female CS Officer: She is Lynn what?

Me: I dunno... Just know her as Lynn.

Female CS Officer: *Pek Chek expression yet again* What you know? Nevermind I'll call to the consultant department. (Talking on the phone) Hello Manny ah? Oei I got a student here... Looking for her consultant Lynn... Oh there is no Lynn here? Okay... Nevermind I'll refer this student to you... No! Ni Ting Wo Jiang Wan Xian! TING! He need more info for the courses... Ok? Bye. (Hang up) (Back to me) Ok now you proceed to the counter near the main entrance.

Counter 2, 1540 hrs

Me: Hello!! Where is Manny?

Manny: Orgh Here here!!

Me: (Walk to him...)

Manny: So how can I help? Actually I think I should refer you back to the counter... Coz that's where you reigster for your course mah.

Male Consultant 2: Eh Manny... What happened?

Me: Nonono... Just now that lady told me that she dunno the course info... So... She refer me to you.

Male Consultant 2: Orgh.... Manny... Then you help him lor then transfer him back to her for course registration.

Manny: Oh... Okay. *Stressed expression*

Male Consultant 2: Manny... I got other things to do... you handle him okay? See you

Manny: Okay... *Stressed expression again* I also not very sure but it's obvious... something to do with the web.

Me: Ic... (Of course la...)

Manny: Ok nevermind I'll help you to register... give me your name please.

Me: Emil

Manny: Why can't I find your account... Student Id please...

After a while...

Manny: Sorry... I'm not good at course registration.. Let's wait for SOS. Btw you going for degree?

Me: Need to go for NS... Chu Lai Zai Jiang Lor...

Manny: Orghh... I thought you finish your NS liao so fit sia *Dissapointed expression* Your consultant is gone... Now anything you can find me... Poor me.. now need to handle her rubbish.

Me: (What rubbish? I am some sort of sale passing around like a basketball)

Manny: Hey Linda! Help! You know how to handle course registration?

Linda: Ya its easy... You Blah Blah.... Then can liao

Manny: Linda... Bu Yao Zou Leh... Pei Wo... Sigh... Cham liao...

Linda: K Manny.. I'll help you... Hey student... Which module you want? Just tell me and I'll help you to register. It is better for you to take the modules for fresh students.

Me: What's the diffrence?

Linda: Your classmate knowledge will be the same as you.

Me: Oh... classmate..

Linda: Arbo then.. Monkey ah?

Me: Okay I want this module...

Linda: Manny... Give him a call when the registration is done... that's all... you can go now.

The Passion

Watched that show for free... Thanks to my teacher haha... Very nice show be sure to catch!!
Best show now in theatres!

Your working hours per year

Guys... take a look at this.

"So you want a day off. Let's take a look at what you are asking for:

There are 365 days per year available for work. There are 52 weeks per year
in which you already have 2 days off per week, leaving 261 days available
for work. Since you spend 16 hours each day away from work, you have used
up 170 days, leaving only 91 days available.

You spend 30 minutes each day on coffee break, which counts for 23 days
each year, leaving only 68 days available. With a 1 hour lunch each day,
you used up another 46 days, leaving only 22 days available for work.

You normally spend 2 days per year on sick leave. This leaves you only 20
days per year available for work. We are off 5 holidays per year, so your
available working time is down to 15 days. We generously give 14 days
vacation per year, so your available working time is down to 15 days. We generously give 14 days vacation per year, which leaves only 1 day available for work and I'll be darned if you are going to take that day off!"

Am I that worst?

I am actually a irresponsible and selfish person to someone. I'm forgetful, lazy and also a late pig to some people... anyway think that's a fact.

Think I really need sometime to really reflect on myself.

The Race

Just chat with a friend of mine in MSN.

He used to be on fire for God, he is only 17 or 18? He is a person with cert or diploma in Bible School. He was a street evangelism, mission team leader. I heard that he often travels to aust to spread the gospel.

Saw this in his msn nick "When mountains fall i will stand.. by the power of my hands.. i don't need you at all GET OUT OF MY LIFE, GOD!!!"

Me: ?

Me: hi there

Him: ?

Me: what are you talking

Me: in your nick?

Him: mean, when i falls i will stand. with my strea and power

Him: :)

Him: i need him to leave me first..

Him: i'm going crazy

Me: why?

Him: Doctor already approved to send me to imh!!!

Him: i'm crazy!!!

Him: they thot i'm nuts (Gone Offline)

That is just so discouraging...

We may start the race well, but that dosen't mean we will end the race well.

New Road

I'm making a decision... A big decision... A decision that will affect my entire life....

I choose this road.

I will live diffrently.... Yes I will... For I have already step out.

I choose this road.

There is no turning back.

Yes means yes, No means No.

Yes.

Quiet down myself for what?

Morning student in school.

Afternoon guitarist in service.

Evening pig in the bed. Ermm.. not going to sleep, just want to blank my mind for a while... after hearing so much noise.... it is time for me to quiet down. There is time that I need to be alone and quiet down myself, but sometimes people just cannot understand why we (not everyone) want to be alone. This is a way for us (not everyone) to recharge our physical energy.

Nearer to dream

Just have the feel of what I want to do in the future.

One step closer....

I am nearer...

I will pay the price!

Choices

Sometimes we can't choose what we want,

So if we can make a decision, we should really take it seriously.

If the decision is made then there is no turning back, I choose the road.

I choose this course... But why am I loosing the spirit? Where gone wrong? Mentally.

I am not the study kind of person, it is really a miracle I can come to this far... I can do it, we can do it...
Let's do it!!! The choice is ours.

I choose to do last min work... Ok... jin tian bu shui jiao!!!

Childish?

Back to our seoncdary school days... I remember we can talk about everything at the phone, complain about our friends and things like that. Come to think of it, it is very girlish to do that.

we have now stop after my post ITE life and their post O lvl life? Think our chat is now more meaningful, not that often but it is 10 times better than those girlish type of chatting...

So why are we so girlish when we were young? Because girls are childish. Hehe sorry girls... Just joking... Boys and Girls... think we have diffrent childish behavior... For guys it is pride that make us childish for girls maybe because of their innocent behavior? Or maybe they are as sensitive as a child? Not very sure.. Well just my point of view. Ermm didn't say I am writting the fact... So dun blame me if I say anything wrong. Ok? Hehe...

Shift

Bedok... What a nice and convinient place. My church, Mrt, friends and alot more are all around me. If I leave... everything will change and I just have to accept it.

Zheng Xin! Can't visit you that often, can't visit Joe that often and cell group will not come anymore...
Hahaha.... anyway not so soon, will take years for us to move. Just pray that we won't move.

Guess that's us... humans... We dun like new enviroment, we should learn to accept new things and of course we should also treasure everything while we are still here... because we won't know what will happen tomorrow. Maybe you guys are wondering why am I becoming more and more straight forward compared to last time, It is because I really don't want to waste my time hiding anymore. I just want to let everyone know I treasure every relationship, every friend... Yes EVERY! I'm serious.... And yes its you...

Hmm... I think too much again ahaha... should sleep now.

The beauty of success

Someone have found a way out.

A way to success.

Why am I feeling so happy?

Sometimes I really think too much... anyway... it is because I care for him? So lets compare, am I heading to the path of success? I dunno. Maybe. Should spend more time looking at myself.

Life

Laughing

Hahaha! Hehehe! Where should our laugh root be planted? On something very lasting... a happiness that will be recorded in your history. Today I laughed alot, but I dun even know what I was laughing at, it is just a temp happiness. Anyway better than nothing. Well, so am I happy? Ermm.... well soso.. Used to be a very negative person. Haha! Recently there is a classic japanese drama 'Ah Xin'. Those auntie, uncle like it alot... The main character so poor thing, suffer from young till old... Yet she never give up.

Give thanks

I don't watch this show, anyway... I think I really should be thankful of my life... so smooth compared to that ah xin... Haii... It is really nothing. "Let the weak say I am strong, let the poor say I am rich for this is what the Lord has done for us. Give thanks..." Haha... friends still remember I kept singing this song when I was in sec3? Haha... That time only know how to sing but never give thanks... 3 yrs have passed. Haha... now I should sing this song with my heart.

Don't look at the past

It's 2+am now why am I still awake? Now... what am I looking for? Maybe I miss the old piano back to my condo life, always like to pretend that I know how to play a piano... Hai... Piano... can't even afford to maintain it. Hmm.. what else I miss? A person that I always regard him as my bro, a very adverturous bro... we climbed house together and we went to the temple and play with the joss sticks... what else? Ya went to the big river to catch fish! AHAHAaha... throw darts together, play Risk together, disturb people together, fight together, cry together, crack jokes together, yaya and play hide and seek together.... Wow... childhood memories... haii... no use thinking that much its over! Past... past... past... Future... Studying IT now going to NS soon... Hope I really can get a job related to IT and somemore I have dreams! No point looking at the past... because it is over... Well... should spend more time thinking about our future... A bright future!!! Now sleep!!!

G6PD

After a long day... finally can sit down and relax. Tomorrow's lesson is canceled! So... ahaha... Don't shake head! I know you will say that I am really blessed.... Your head! There will be a makeup lesson! Ok... my latest CMPB Medical Screening report, they have confirmed that I have G6PD... Wonder how it came to me out of a sudden. When I was young, the hospital team also confirmed that I don't have this stupid G6PD.

Night Working

Woke up at 5am to continue my project. Ever have a stuck feeling when doing project? That's the worst restriction, you want to do it but you just can't start it... anyway I'm a night owl... I can only do things at night. Okie, I'm completing it soon... Oh... I still want to sleep, hope I can finish it soon.

Thoughts Dumping

Just reached home, was filled with thought after the Revival Conference. Well, think I just need to stop thinking and rest now. So tomorrow need to go down to CMPB once again for another screening, well... As I said God is our healer nothing to think... It is just so simple. Now sleep!

I'm back

I'm home...

Transfering home...

Challenging... Challenging...

The hotness of fries

Today at school was not feeling well and then nevermind, went to BK for lunch... Told myself I won't order fries and the cahsier told me that I can get extra things and all these if I order the meal set... Okie that's it! Dunno how to control end up now got fever! Serve myself right, thats the power of fries, beware of them. Remember self-control is important, so you are addicted to what? Becareful ok?

I got a few friends getting married this yr. Well, goodluck friends.

Result for CMPB Medical Screening

Bad news

1 Error injection during blood draining

G6PD Found

Suspected stone located at kidney

Stressed (Answered questions that are related with numbers! IT'S FULL OF NUMBERS!! ARGHHH)

haha...

Anyway... Dun worry about me, our God is our healer!

Faint path (Aftermath)

Okie... Slept peacefully this morning, too peaceful that I woke up late and can't go for my CPMB medical screening. Hai... So? I must say yes, in order to let ourselves sleep peacefully without stupid dreams, sleeping breaks and any other sleeping restrictions, we must make ourselves tired. How to make ourselves tired? Exercise more!!! Release your energy so that you can eat more and enjoy your food. Well... some people dun really agree with my theory, let me give those people five words:

D . A . Y . O . R - Disagree At Your Own Risk

haha siao again.

Faint path

It has been a long time since I last knocked out in my sofa and carpet. Lol... It happened today...When sleep no dreams, really feel the peace. Guess we really need to be tired in order to sleep well. Not sure...

Anyway... the test start now... I'll try to sleep and I'll let you guys know, how is my sleep after a longgg day.... ouch headache... Now time to faint at bed. Goodnight Emil. "Night... Night..." Siao...

haha ciao.

Undercover

Undercover: Freeze! I am a cop.

Kingpin: (Speechless)

Undercover: You are free to go, dun let me see you again. (Shoot the air *BOOM* *BOOM* *BOOM*)

Kingpin: (Fireworks explode in air *BOOM*) Promotion for 785221 Mr Emil Lim! Receive it now.

Undercover: Yes sir!

Oh a promotion. Wait long long...

Fight for

Fight for freedom.

Fight for yourself.

Fight for pride.

Fight for power.

Fight for nothing.

Fight for freedom...

Caring person

Suddenly have the urge to take care of the people younger than me. As I think back, when I was young I really admired those big brothers around me. Now, I am one of them. Ha. ha. ha... (Time to action)

Simple? Good?

A simple day

A simple thought

great.

Happy Chinese New Year! We shall prosper!!!

Year 2004

Its gonna be exciting.

Its gonna be exciting...