A Special Christmas Entry for 2008

Approaching Black Road 6th Anniversary
Transition Part 2 and 3

First I would like to say Merry Christmas! I understand it's been a while since my last update as my previous modem is out of order and I just replaced another modem yesterday. Well.. Just came back from my Christmas Eve Dinner with friends and we had a heart to heart talk together. It's just wonderful but there's more to say and I decided to share the essence of the topic with you tonight.

Transition Part 2: What's the correct mindset towards purpose?

Can I just start by asking you a question? What's your desire? Power? prosperity? Or some other thing? What if you can't get it? Well you say with faith I can do all things but are you trying to say you will always get what you want? You don't but even so... we still got to believe for more because we should never stop improving.

You also need to understand acknowledging yourself is another thing, we don't judge our standard through our jobscope or rank but character and walking in the right track is the main thing! I've learnt this the hard way all these years.

Transition Part 3: The adjustment we need

One thing I learnt through a time of transition, it might be something uncomfortable but sometimes it makes us know what's the thing that is sustainable and what is not. I used to think that this and that might be very important but end up feeling a waste of time to even think of that thing.

Well.. after a time of transition I find that my focus is getting more and more right in the sense and it's sustainable, it's not just a temp urge but a destiny that I can't run away from. Think i'm going to continue the last part of this topic "Transition" in the beginning of next year most probably as I start my new year goal setting. Need to wake up early tomorrow for church service, so probably.. I'll see you next year! Once again I wish you a Merry Merry Christmas!!!

Approaching Black Road 6th Anniversary
Transition Part 1: Positions

Just came back from my driving lesson circuit training as I'm going to take my test very very soon, this is one of the busiest month in 2008 but this month is also a very special month to me as it is the month before my blog's anniversary. 6 years of blogging, gone through alot of things and as I countdown my blog's anniversary, let me share with you my life, my heart in the next 4 weeks of December.

I'm going to start off strong in the first part of the 4 part series of this topic "Transition". People will ask me this question, "what's your rank now?" I'm perfectly fine with the question but some friends like to conclude your destiny by your "rank" or current "rank".

Well.. firstly I do believe anytime, anyone can just promote suddenly without a warning :) but let me tell you something! I believe in influence and being yourself or who you really are and that includes your destiny, purpose etc. So please people, don't come and tell me (or anyone) that it is not my destiny to be in this rank or that rank because let me tell (teach) you something, our influence in life is not based on rank but character.

Sorry if I sound abit too strong but this is the foundation (I figured this out during one of my greatest Transition period in life) of my life and if you don't agree with what I wrote here, probably you will not agree on anything I am about to say in the rest of the entries for this month about Transition.

December 2008: The Finale Again

Asian Conference 2008! What a great conference! It really impacted my life so much that I'm still abit lost in words now. All I can say now is... we gotto arise like never before! So this is the finale month for 2008, one of the busiest month for 2008! We are approaching to a new year yet at the same time the 6th Anniversary of Black Road (this blog).

I got 4 big events coming up, 2 big company events, 1 church big day and 1 important practical test for my driving lisense.

My dad will be back from China in the middle of the month of December, kinda miss him already and you know what? I always have this desire to do our favourite thing, want to have a guess what is it? Walking around the city, the heart of Singapore by foot and you will be surprise how many things have changed since the beginning of the year.

21st Century Singaporean (4 Days Before Asia Conference 2008)

It's over. Oh.. I'm refering to my role as a stand in exec and everything end up well! (I think.) Anyway.. next wednesday I'll be clearing leaves for this great event we going to have: Asia Conference 2008. I believe this event is going to transform the whole Asia and it will be a time a breakthrough. So do come if you can, for more information about this event you can check with me or visit this website http://www.asiaconference.org.sg/

All right! Now let's talk about this great city: Singapore. Well... I believe behind every great nation, you will find great people with boldness to open up their hearts for creativity and possibilities.

I'm really proud that Singapore won the world-wide Motor Sport Facility of the Year. What else do we have? If I'm not wrong the largest reservoir in the whole world at Marina Bay with a beautiful city garden nearby the reservoir? It's amazing!

Now, let's zoom it closer to ourselves shall we? Do you agree we have alot to say about ourselves? Just like me for myself for example, I have alot to say about our nation, about our fellow Singaporean and about myself.

So let me just start with our fellow Singaporean: I guess the 21st Singaporean (maybe the whole world) is becoming more and more open about ourselves and most of us enjoy blogging about our lives.

Now, lets zoom it further to my blog and you can check whether is it true: you can check my entries 5 years back and the way I wrote my blog is totally a different style compared to my recent blog entries. What's the difference? I guess... I'm just being more open to people and I think I'm improving in expressing myself.

Let us open our hearts for new things, just like our Singapore in the now and I believe we will experience yet another breakthrough in life. For me it's this Wednesday: Asia Conference 2008.

"Opening my heart once again for a new breakthrough in life."

Moving On: November First Challange (Last Day of 1 Week of Morning Prayer)

Wow... what a great week! As usual every morning went down to my church which is nearby my workplace to pray every morning, I really really feel that the breakthrough is going to come into my New Life season right now. Last week I talk about relationship is one of the aspect I'm working on in this New Life season and you know what? Just came back from a tea (teh o) chit chat today and one of my friend gone through a similar experience I had in life. After the chit chat, I'm more convinced with my theory, "A relationship must be tested before progressing."

I always believe if a relationship can't get through the test, bless that person (It can be a painful process but it's blibical) and move on! (you have more important things to do) Don't end a relationship with anger (be genorous) but in peace so that you will prosper as your soul prosper.

Now.. how about me? Well.. from the time I decided to move on to my New Life I find that besides Relationship another important thing I'm working on is my Career and some of you know that next week I will be standing in for my executive superior for a week! It will determine whether am I a good assistant to my superior when he is not around and settle things on behalf of him for a week!

It's a good opportunity and you know what? In order for us to grow in whatever area of our life, we need to be tested before we move on to the next level. So friends, let's move on and breakthrough!

Reunion Of Fellowship? (1 Day Before 1 Week of Morning Prayer)

Tomorrow will be our first day of our one week Morning Prayer yet again! I believe I'm going to end the year well. So recently I have been planning alot for the last two months of this year and one of the thing I'm going to work on is my relationship with people.

I got a few close friends and I'm really thankful for that but I notice something about friendship, crisis will stregthen the friendship or end a friendship. Everything must be tested in order to prove that it is strong and that's why we gotto treasure every precious moment when our close friends are with us because we have gone through so much with our close friends yet we know people will not be able to be there for you all the time.

As close friends we gotto bless them even if we have to go our seperate ways but deep in our hearts we will be praying and blessing that particular close friend. So be sure to be willing to bless that person if it is a time to say farewell and pray that there will be a time of reunion soon.

Let's Keep It Going

Hi guys, I'm here again to talk again and I can say that right now I'm in the climax of the year or grand finale of the year to put it in another way. Lots of events are coming up, events in the workplace where I have to work OT, events that are spiritual and exciting, events that will determine my productivity, events that will determine my financial status for next year and many many more.

Well got to keep the faith and press on! Got to write it all down and visualize the victorious moments I will be experiencing in the new year eve!

So far I have only taken 1 Annual Leave as I'm too busy with work and other stuffs but I guess this month got to really do some work life balance and therefore I'm planning an event @ Night Safari Halloween! It's gonna be fun! After the fun night I'll be back for a long sleep and do some retreat exercise for myself.

Expectation Increase

Have been very very busy, physcially and mentally this season. Not going to talk alot today but just want to say:

Expectations from people, colleagues and friends... almost everyone are increasing greatly. I know I got to be stronger than ever before, even for my own expectation, for the Kingdom and for everyone. I want to have the power for it and I'm really looking forward for that kind power at this coming sat, I know it's going to be good and exciting.

"Strength and power from the true love."

Nov and Dec 2008

You know something? I don't know about you but for me now in my 20s I think time really flies. I remember when I was young I really felt that it takes too long for a year to end. Now? I got to really number my days... and you know lots of important events coming up in the next two months and it will determine my productivity for the year 2008. I really hope I can acheive my goals for 2008 and I will do well in the upcoming important events in the next two months.

It's going to be exciting, yet tiring. :)

Music and Spirit

I'm getting a little excited recently, going to have a new colleague soon in my dept.

Yesterday I met my guit teacher,

"Invest on the right things!" "Pay the price!" Is really what he will say all the time. At that moment I felt ashamed, don't think I really treasure what he taught me and I kept silent about it, about the similar things I heard from him few years back, the similar way of reasoning and teaching.

Well you must be wondering what am I talking about?

Yesterday a whole group of us went to his session. I felt ashamed after the session but at the same time I was very inspired to fullfill my promise to him and the symbol of the promise lies with my personal guitar exchange with a condition he gave. I'm going to do something about it... I really want to...

The Great Commandment and My Life Today

I felt that I made a right decision today, I felt so peaceful and happy. Decisions we going to make are always so important in life, epecially in a time of crisis or down moment and bad things do happen when you have the right attitude but we have to press on and continue to do the right thing.

Today I'm so happy that I focus on the right thing although I heard some bad news or negative things about me during these two months. I really do believe it is something that is eternal and that is the

"Great Commandment: Loving God wholeheartedly and loving people fervantly."
The vision of City Harvest Church, the church of the living God.

Now

The past is trying to gain control of my life through these few incidents but right now to me it is the future that matters. So within these few months gotto put my career first follow by equpping myself and not forgetting about my ministries. So next year hopefully I'll be ready for what I have in mind.

Let us keep in touch with our progress in life :)

What A Night? (1 Day Before Hokkien Album 1 release)

Always when I thought that I have overcome my past, the past will come back strong and try to shake my faith. Today is such a emotional day to know that one of my best buddy in life, know him for 5 years and now know that our friendship one day might end.

And it is also sad to know that another person actually felt like taking a chopper to my house because of an incident one year ago.

At the moment when I heard it I ask myself, "Am I really beyond hope? Though things are improving in my life now but why people seems to be so judgemental after 1 year have passed?" I think I know the ans of this question but yes... even if the best friend of my life has to go because he has to, I will not ruin his future though I know he is also in a dilema to choose between friendship and purpose. As a true friend... I will support the desire of his heart.

"Emil... you must be strong... the people out there is waiting for you to make a stand."

Things Expected To Come

Just a recap of what I have said in my previous post, the hokkien album that I have participated will be launching their album release sessions this coming 13/14 September 2008. Do download the poster and check out the timing! Please support this event.

Okay now! Let me start with my next reservice: In Camp Training (ICT2) in 2009 will fall on the month of August! Those who know me haha.. you know I'm going to miss something (not going to tell you what.)

Recently I have been learning alot in my workplace especially now I'm going to stand in for my senior executive supervisor when he is not around and Nov my supervisor will be away for reservice! (My boss did mentioned about promoting me to his direct assistant, thank God!) Is that an opportunity or a chance for disaster? Well... that depends on my attitude which I guess it is somekind of theme for me this year: New Life Season (how you sow a seed?)

Besides working I have some progress in my ministry too but I realize at the same time my playing time has increased (get hooked in Elven Blood a RPG game in Facebook) which I think I should cut down abit. So what about you? Will you join me on this routine check of life?

Thank You For Your Love Hokkien Album

Finally, after 3 years of preparation... this album is finally launching and just want to let you guys know that I did participate in this album recording project. My previous church will be having 2 Evangelistic meetings in 13/14 September 2008. For more information, please download the poster attached below. Please support this album!

Yea!! It's really a priveledge to participate and serve Him.

8 Yrs Of Walk With Him: Happiness - Influence

As written in the previous post, soon I'll be in the season of preparing myself for romantic relationship and even my leader is encouraging me to get attached soon (didn't tell him about my plans). God is very intrested in our happiness in life more than anything else but I want to bring this joy to the people around me and I really believe I can do alot more than what I am doing now. I know I have been talking alot about spiritual things recently but bare with me non believers after this entry most probably I will start to talk about other things.

Truly as I look at my spiritual journey, about 8 years of walk with Him I can say that I'm more mature than ever before. Gone through valleys and storms when I thought that I am something and after that I thought that I lost everything but just when I thought that I lost everything, God restored some of the things I used to have bit by bit as my soul prosper, as I begin to put His kingdom first.

Maybe in the past I really have been adopting all the wrong attitudes, in the past I have so much opportunities that people wished that they could have but in the end I chose to throw those opportunities away because I don't think I'm ready. Now though God is restoring things back, just want to say I don't want rush things too quickily and I really hope I will have the right attitudes in everything I do and even in the area of romantic relationship (that's why I wanted to prepare myself first). Well just in case you thought those opportunities I lost were just some romantic relationships, let me tell you no! I'm reallytalking about something more... having opportunities to become an influence to the people BUT before that I really pray that this time as God is restoring what I lost, let me really adopt the right attitude and I know I will do something that will last for eternity! Amen.

New Direction Of Life

We finished the 2 Weeks of Morning Prayer going to have another one in Nov. It's really great even though there were few days I slept in the sofa so that I can occupy my room for my newphews (but I love to sleep at sofa!). I know He's new anointing is in me especially when I'm living a new life right now.... Talking about this, recently the people around my life and even my leader is talking about getting attached. Received some new materials from my leaders too that really change my mindset about life partner (not forgeting the prophetic birthday gift for dating matches with what God spoken to me for the year 2009).

So now... what's my next step? Well... going to make a step very very soon but I have one more thing to settle and it won't take up much of my time and after that I'm going to start a series of ways preparing myself for it (and then.... after that we'll see how it goes).

Okie... not going to talk much about it but let me just end with a few words:
"Congratulations to my friends that are graudating in SOT this year in 2008!" Ooops it's already my one year annivesary as a SOT graduate and we having a gathering this coming Sunday!

Malaysian Blood: Bless As You Get Lighter (1 Week Left For 2 Weeks of Morning Prayer)

Previous week was an exciting week! Started our morning prayer last week and started off in our afflicted church: Heart of God in Paya Lebar as I had my off in lieu on the previous Monday and from Tuesday onwards, I need to travel all the way to Jurong West Church before 7am. It can be quite a tiring lifestyle as I need to wake up on all the weekdays of the week at 5am but once I step in I found that the place is really full of His presence and it is addictive haha... I tell you, I don't mind to live a lifestyle of 7-8am morning prayer session everytime before I go to work since my workplace is so near to my Jurong West Church! Everyday I started my day with high morale and I know that I am more productive than ever before.

Last week was really a busy week for me, my 2 good nephews from Malaysia were here again and I brought them to our church and to one of the restaurant in Expo. Really enjoyed the time together with them as I think they really treasure our relationship as relatives. Well time really flies, it was just like yesterday when they were little rascals and by the way I'm just 5 years older than my oldest newphew! Haha so I am a young uncle!

Look at my tagboard haha... Sam is my another good nephew living in Singapore but we all have this same Malaysian blood as we are all from this Malaysia family tree. Nobody will understand how much our elders have gone through but we made it as we put aside the old things for the new things and now we are prospering in life!

Anyway.. from all these things I can relate all these to my life, as I put down my old things, old relationships for the new things and new relationships, life has become much more meaningful and the things of the world like hatred, unforgiveness etc will grow strangely dim and I will be able to bless people abit more generously as days goes by, even towards the people that dun really likes me I felt much more easier to bless and I know I'm getting lighter now. Phew.... peace on my world~

Shocking Clear Knowledge (1 Week Left For 2 Weeks of Morning Prayer)


Well this is a very very fresh entry I must say and it's one of the most shocking knowledge I had for this year but before I start let me just start off by sharing my new lifestyle that caused me to sleep abit earlier than before on the weekdays.


Wow.. what an exciting week! Started our morning prayer this week and started off in our afflicted church: Heart of God in Paya Lebar as I'm had my off in lieu on the previous Monday and from Tuesday onwards, I need to travel all the way to Jurong West Church before 7am. It can be quite a tiring lifestyle as I need to wake up every on 5am but once I step in I found that the place is really full of His presence and it is addictive haha... I tell you, I don't mind to live a lifestyle of 7-8am morning prayer session everytime before I go to work since my workplace is so near to my Jurong West Church! Everyday I started my day with high morale and I know that I am more productive than ever before.





So what exactly is the knowlede I received?





I had lots and lots and lots of external confirmation about the things that I need to concentrate on next year and there are alot of spiritual teachings I received from my leaders about that particular topic which is a backup confirmation too. You realize I talk alot about my current season here in this blog and it call it the: New Life Series and it consist of:





The mind and attitude when you look at something or new things like:


1. Your career


2. Your gifts and abillities


3. Your dreams and visions


4. Your spiritual life and ministry


5. Family


6. Life partner





At my age what will you normally look at? Some will say at my age you shouldn't look for a life partner and should concentrate on your career or ministry and so on. Of course, sometimes we have some reasons for having a delay to prepare ourselve for it (example

3rd Birthday Celebration 2008: Eternity (1 Day Before 2 Weeks Of Morning Prayer)

Tomorrow will be our first morning prayer, feeling super excited about it especially when I know God will be doing great things like never before. Firstly, I want to specially thank my cell group for the birthday gift, my mum's $$$ blessing, bro's treat and Wan Rou for the 2 expansive gifts. Not forgetting all the wishes from friends and relatives... big thank you to you guys!!!

Well today I'm going to write about my 3rd Birthday Celebration 2008 and you must be wondering what's so special about this celebration I had today? Infact I can say it is one of the most simple event I have in life but through this event I really felt that happiness is a very simple thing.

Just a simple meal with family and a good elder sister (we treat her as part of our family member), no fancy ideas, not a 21st Birthday Party like event yet it can be an enjoyable moment. You know what? During my 2008 birthday I received blessings and gossip news about my life, you know I didn't hear any gossip about me for a long long time but it came at the wrong time. Today through this example in life just want to say, gossip won't last but a simple love can last for eternity! Look at all these things: Anger, Gossip, Unforgiveness etc... will we be able to find all these things when we return to the Presence of God? No... we won't but a simple love from my Family, Cell group and Friends (don't need to be a complicated one) will follow us all the way to the days of eternity.

"So let us focus on the things of the eternity."

My 23rd Birthday - SG's Birthday (2 Days Before 2 Weeks of Morning Prayer)

Thanks everyone!!! For the birthday sms, friendster and facebook comments! My handphone was flooded with lots of sms!!!! Was clearing some of my sms for the birthday sms (1st time in my whole life), you might be thinking that this is common to you but to me it is very new.

It's my BEST birthday yet, just now was my 2nd celebration but I still have one more group to go haha... happening ya? Anyway... just want to say really love you guys and really treasure the friendship I have with each and everyone of you. Wanna thank my family and relatives too for all the birthday wishes.

A Dream For Singapore

So now it's already after 12am, it's Singapore's Birthday!!! Personally I am really really proud to be a Singaporean and we always say this line in our pledge (if i am not wrong) "to build a democratic society, based on justice and equality." I really felt that it's so spiritual inline to bring moral values to society and to our fellow Singaporean and the next line says "So as to acheive happiness, prosperity and progress for our nation." how many of you here wants to have a taste of heaven here in Singapore experiencing the joy, prospertity and to see our fellow Singaporean here living in unity to bring our nation forward to a next level? It's so in line with our values as people of God!

Words from my heart: (For those who don't like me please listen to my heartbeat one last time)

Though recently I found out that actually no matter how hard you tried, how much you let go and forgive, there will still be people gossiping about you. Well... gotto get used to it that there will always be people amplifying people's mistake instead of reconciling with each other. But one thing I'm very happy about my cell group and church, we only say good things about people and that's one of the thing we need to do to promote unity. So... friends... what's your view about this?

Maybe in the past I have offended some of you in someway, but let's put it down and focus on other thing will you? Not saying that all of us should recover back the level of friendship we used to have but let's stop destroying, adding salt to people's wound and if you find it hard to bless me, maybe you can bless others rather than saying some negative things about me. Okie... today is my birthday so I'll try to make it short (sorry after all the birthday wishes, I heard a gossip about me spreading to another person today and that incident was an incident that happened one year ago)

I'm really tired of explaning again and again... infact I can admit that I've done wrong and I'm not perfect but ya... I won't be unhappy about it and I'll leave everything to yourself because I have so much more things to focus on but if you are willing I will always be a faithful friend. After all that's my normal characteristic when I cool down.

Okie... so whether you like me or not, I have a word for you: "I treasure you!" - to everyone in my life.

Romantic Relationship & God (6 Days Before 2 Weeks of Morning Prayer)

8 months have passed since I made a decision in the darkest moment of my life, so now 4 more months left to go before I open myself for something in my life! I must say it has been the most exciting season in my life as I really experience the goodness of God.

Previously our church have this 21 Days of one hour prayer and so many great things have happened and next monday onwards will be 2 Weeks of Prayer every morning at church before we go to work. Seriously speaking I still haven't plan how I'm going to get to my workplace on time but cabbing and leaves should solve everything.

well as I have said my bro have a spiritual (more than frens) female fren and I think my bro is getting more occupied than ever before and I told him that next time he will be even more busy if the relationship progress and I will understand. Well, I think in life we really need to make use of our singleness to get right with God, to serve God before a quarter or half a time will be lost next time for your life partner.

People have been asking me what about me? Haha... because of my brother!! Drag me into this somehow! Well, In Phase 1 I experienced Him so much more than ever before but in Phase 2 (didn't start well after my re service didn't managed to wake up on time and in the end I took a cab that cost me $30+ just to be early!!! But today I reached my workplace on time and I believe as we pray things sooner or later will be okay.) I want to be even more spiritual than Phase 1! More spiritual than ever before and I'm going lift all these things in Phase 2, my dreams and visions to the altar of God.

"Everything will sumbit to You and I don't want it to affect my love for You."

Phase 1 Of New Life Cleared (Completed 1st Reservice)

I'm back from reservice the day before yesterday and I went back to my current company to work yesterday, still getting used to it because I were inside the camp for a 3 weeks of intensive training and well it's my senior's last half day of work. So I'll be taking over his role, to be honest I'm abit stress :)

So I have cleared the first phase of my new life season! Wow... reservice is really tough but by the grace of God I have gone through the training in one pieace (though I injured my left arm and right now I can't carry things in my workplace). So next year I'll be going for the In Camp Training 2 (ICT2) another 3 weeks of intensive training, by the way once again I want to thank God for my sir as he is someone who knows God and taught the whole team blibical principal while we face some situation in camp.

So to round up everything in Phase 1 of my new life (the Word taught us to count the blessings):

1. I have completed my 1st reservice training.

2. My brother's breakthrough in relationship (Have been encouraging and praying for him)

3. Have some progress in my music project.

4. Promotion in workplace.

5. Passed my Advanced Driving Theory.

6. Dad went to received Christ in altar call

7. Lots of new friendships!

Now here comes Phase 2!! Will be fighting for my final driving test to get my Class 3 and after that I'll probably go for my part time degree at night after work. At that point of time while I'm working and studying, will be making myself ready for a Godly romantic relationship and at the same time probably I'll start to participate abit in missions ministry to gain experience in teaching the word of God and applying what I've learnt in bible school.

So next year I need to clear my 2nd 3 weeks of re-service In Camp Training 2 (ICT2), gotto prepare myself physically and mentally.

"I have dreams from heaven and nothing will stop me from running after them!"

Talking About My Sibiling (1 week of re-service left)

Hello guys, haha.. I'm back again and just wake up a while and it's already saturday night now. I will be attending tomorrow's service instead as I was sick with lots of bodyaches and blisters but very happy that everything is going to end soon. This week re-service is tough as we did lots of field training.

Today I just want to spend sometime to talk about my sibling and you must be wondering why I use the word "sibling" instead of "brother" because most of the time when I talk about a brother it is always a close friend or brother in christ.

Well.. my brother is one of my role model as a man. His patience, love for the family, brotherhood and towards his life partner everything I think I have much to learn from him.

Well recently my brother get to know quite alot of female friends and 1 spiritual potential life partner and I really thank God she is someone that I really like her to be my sister in law. Things have been moving very smoothly and no matter what they will face I just want to say I am happy for my brother now.

As brothers we always motivate each other, I motivate him to accomplish our dad's dream for us to be a degree holder and his actions and accomplishments taught me about being a good man for my family and my future life partner. Well... as a man... I have lots of dreams but without the character, guess things won't last long.

Just like what Jesus taught, we shouldn't be worst than a pharisee, character is one of the foundation in life and "Right now I'm not there yet but soon brother, I'm going to be there to be a better person as I continue to walk with Him."

Treasure Your Friends (2 weeks of re-service left)

Ah.. home sweet home... 1stly wanna thank you guys for your smses, I really felt so encouraged when I see your encouragement sms but well.. here are some of my updates:

I injured myself during my training and yes I know I'm careless. Here I am my 1st book out from my first Police trooper training (similar to army) but lots of things I can't reveal to you guys because it is confidential so I'll give it a skip. Well maybe can share more about my re service team, I will be seeing them for the next 10 years and I really enjoy training together with them. Haha.. I think my teamates are my best colleague yet in my whole life (one of my sir is actually my prev squadmate's friend and also my current job colleauge's friend what a small word!) but anyway, I'll be booking in on Sunday.

Yesterday one of my sister came to our home for dinner, what a family dinner we have! Really enjoy ourselves and all of us really treat her as one of us. Well... I guess she will be coming very often but I shall not talk more about it right now, haha.. I'll talk more about her when I have the time.

Through all these things... I really felt alot, felt that it is amazing to have a such a great circle of friendships but more than all these things, even right now as we breathe, what a previledge to live and like what I always said to my close friend, treasure your life, whatever you have in mind please do it and people might want to stop you but let's be strong and fight for it! By the way I notice there are some silent readers in my blog too, you know who you are... wanna thank all of you for being a faithful friend and let's continue to move on and get better in life. See you guys next weekend!

It's Hard For Ex To Be Fren Again? (1 Day Left Before My Re-Service)

Haha extracted from one of my fren huimin's blog. Well... I guess this is one of the entry I really think it is intresting to read because... I find that through the conversation I learn more about myself and others. So this is the highlight of the day! Cheers! 1 more day to go for my re-service!

I'll be away from home for Police KINS Unit In Camp Training 1 from: 14 July - 1 Aug

Eh before I go, let me just say my stand on the topic of this entry about why can't couples maintain their friendship after they broke off, well seriously I think time can heal your past and I believe in reconciliation BUT after that how close you can be with your ex is really depend on situation. How much each of us can put down the past and trusting each other not having the thought to date again? It's not as simple but lots of things to consider. Okie... enjoy reading this conversation! (btw... pls note I'm not inside the conversation below.)

Why Can't Ex Be Fren Again? (Extracted From Hui Min's Blog)

新的开始新的希望。。。愿这段路会好走。。。 says:
nah
新的开始新的希望。。。愿这段路会好走。。。 says:
its wierd
新的开始新的希望。。。愿这段路会好走。。。 says:
unless...
=< ~:{-GrAcE-}:~ >= rush rush rush says:
unless wad?
新的开始新的希望。。。愿这段路会好走。。。 says:
erm it's a kind of bro relation den get into bg relation
新的开始新的希望。。。愿这段路会好走。。。 says:
den realise not that type of love
新的开始新的希望。。。愿这段路会好走。。。 says:
den still can be frens lor
=< ~:{-GrAcE-}:~ >= rush rush rush says:
y cant couples juz be bacK fren
=< ~:{-GrAcE-}:~ >= rush rush rush says:
i dun get it lor
新的开始新的希望。。。愿这段路会好走。。。 says:
i think it depends on the situation
新的开始新的希望。。。愿这段路会好走。。。 says:
yup
新的开始新的希望。。。愿这段路会好走。。。 says:
but it is not very nice as when u see him u will feel hurt
新的开始新的希望。。。愿这段路会好走。。。 says:
or being reminded of the past
新的开始新的希望。。。愿这段路会好走。。。 says:
though ppl says what time can heal... ya rite
新的开始新的希望。。。愿这段路会好走。。。 says:
sometime one party may think why last we dun zhen xi each other. den ask for fu he... the other may not think that way... and things may be more complicated
新的开始新的希望。。。愿这段路会好走。。。 says:
so i rather not frens at all, unless is that u really know that person so well, and clear about each other that what your feel for him or vice versa is neutral not love anymore
=< ~:{-GrAcE-}:~ >= rush rush rush says:
wa
新的开始新的希望。。。愿这段路会好走。。。 says:
huh?
=< ~:{-GrAcE-}:~ >= rush rush rush says:
speechless
新的开始新的希望。。。愿这段路会好走。。。 says:
but it is interesting that u can still stay fren with ex...
新的开始新的希望。。。愿这段路会好走。。。 says:
means that wither u can not over about it or sth ba
新的开始新的希望。。。愿这段路会好走。。。 says:
cos its very hard to find zhi ji
=< ~:{-GrAcE-}:~ >= rush rush rush says:
means that wither u can not over about it or sth ba.. wad u mean?
新的开始新的希望。。。愿这段路会好走。。。 says:
i mean that either you cant over that relationship - meaning u still have that feel, or not will be the other case mention jus now
新的开始新的希望。。。愿这段路会好走。。。 says:
this kind of thing should be qte obvious - u know it yourselves...
=< ~:{-GrAcE-}:~ >= rush rush rush says:
haha, mine is e other one, where we both cld put down wad's tat over btw us. so yea. nth much
新的开始新的希望。。。愿这段路会好走。。。 says:
mean... i believe so... but that is what u think on the surface.
新的开始新的希望。。。愿这段路会好走。。。 says:
deep in ur heart - i think u still a little like him
新的开始新的希望。。。愿这段路会好走。。。 says:
or another way to say is that guy may be one u feel really comfortable with - the one u love most / perfer most compared to the other
新的开始新的希望。。。愿这段路会好走。。。 says:
that y u wanna stay in contact with him
新的开始新的希望。。。愿这段路会好走。。。 says:
and oso both parties muz be agreeable to it
新的开始新的希望。。。愿这段路会好走。。。 says:
ur char i feel lah.. can be very sui pian in certain things, but for love u are trying to be show ur brave side, inside you heart is very small
新的开始新的希望。。。愿这段路会好走。。。 says:
unlike those who really look with their weak heart - like abit feel hurt
新的开始新的希望。。。愿这段路会好走。。。 says:
but when come to love they may handle it better than the brave side one
新的开始新的希望。。。愿这段路会好走。。。 says:
is always that way... yue qiang jiang de ren qi shi xin le shi zui cui rou de
新的开始新的希望。。。愿这段路会好走。。。 says:
i always wonder y u put ... i guess you are not over with a guy u like - but i dunno who
新的开始新的希望。。。愿这段路会好走。。。 says:
so when u see him u start emo the rest of the day
新的开始新的希望。。。愿这段路会好走。。。 says:
proj workload add on to this factor
新的开始新的希望。。。愿这段路会好走。。。 says:
LOL
。。。愿这段路会好走。。。 says:
or wadeva u describe urself
新的开始新的希望。。。愿这段路会好走。。。 says:
or maybe diff ppl have diff ways of handling
新的开始新的希望。。。愿这段路会好走。。。 says:
it s hard u know
新的开始新的希望。。。愿这段路会好走。。。 says:
to treat nth happen b4
新的开始新的希望。。。愿这段路会好走。。。 says:
u best remedy is to be fren with ur ex
新的开始新的希望。。。愿这段路会好走。。。 says:
but to them is to look fwd and continue with life
新的开始新的希望。。。愿这段路会好走。。。 says:
i guess u 2 tog b4 somewhat should know what he is thinking
新的开始新的希望。。。愿这段路会好走。。。 says:
or another to say - both of you dunno each in depth
新的开始新的希望。。。愿这段路会好走。。。 says:
so he cant cross himself to be frens again
新的开始新的希望。。。愿这段路会好走。。。 says:
if let say he ignore it show that he really give out on a most basic relation - frenship
新的开始新的希望。。。愿这段路会好走。。。 says:
den why bother-- and make yourself bad, sad, emo

Lone Support Season? (2 Days Left Before My Re-Service)

Recently lots of my closer colleague decided to tender and that was quite a surprise. So at the moment I will be the only one supporting my boss until a new person come in. Not to forget I still have Re-Service to clear.

Well... I guess this is life, we gotto get used to people coming in and out of our life and always be prepared to meet new people.

Hopefully... my new clicks will come soon. Re-Service is just around the corner.

The Introduction To A Future Season (1 Wk Before My Re-Service)

What a tremendous presence of God even when I talk right now, I just sense that I will see a breakthrough very soon in my current season today as I spend sometime with Him. What a God moment, what a priviledge to serve Him at a time like this. I know that after my New Life Season, the Mission Season will be very very soon to come.

I am called since I was young and I know that day by day my time is approaching, as I begin to sow, I will begin to reap and I will be equipped to do great things for Him.

What a night I have today, so hard to describe but yet so clear in my mind.

Light And Darkness (1 Week Before Re-Service)

I guess every single one of us somehow or rather will feel that we are living in a very self centered and icy world at times, where everyone (including myself) is so busy with their own things. Is there really true love among us? Is there hope when the world seems so dark? Some of the questions most of us will ask. Well... let's become the salt and light of the world, that's what we are here for! Maybe we should really start the ball rolling and the ball from heaven will move in our lives like never before.

Well last week before I stay out of the world for 3 weeks (Re-Service Residential Training), I hope I can do something meaningful in the lives of the people. Well that's all for last week, time to prepare for Monday Working Day!

Enjoyable Chit Chat

Just finished a chat with a china friend, really enjoy the conversation. I always love China and the chinese national and she's really a fun person to chat with. But haha.. time to get back to my own life, gotto do some preparation for the in camp trainning and the things that is lining up these two weeks before I get in.

Time to also prepare work for tomorrow! Last day for this week! Yea...

I'm Cute??!! (Last Two Weeks Before Re Service...)

Two weeks before my new unit in camp trainning, I'll be away from home from 14 July - 1 August. Hmm... it's going to be exciting to be more like an army personnel.

Well this is the final thing I need to face before going for further studies, hmm... finally I'm going for the last phase of my education and I believe I'm getting my driving lisence soon in a few months time.

Well... haha... many will ask how about my love life? Hmm... like I always say, let my career come first and try not to be cute when girls around! LOL... recently lots of gals told me that I'm super cute.

Anyway... thanks for the motivation for me to become smaller in size, now I don't take dinner anymore cos after work I can only reach home at 8+ pm which I think it's too late for dinner. Well gonna watch my diet as I'm getting older, haha... or it will affect my cuteness... oh no... can you you gals call me shuai or ying jun instead? Anyway... skipping dinner is super effective!

That's all for last week... gotto sleep before I go to work later. Goodnight :)

The Dead End

Let me release to you another good news in my life, I got promoted to a confirmed staff! So I'll get more monthly $$$ and benefits in the company woohoo! God is good! more good news will come!

Well just finish a phone conversation with my gan brother and haha... I felt alot through this conversation. We were talking about the posibilities we might get to see if we can turn back time, well I think... things will be very smooth and we'll progress much faster. We will not repeat our past mistakes but it is impossible!

Ever have the feeling that we are reaching a dead end? I did... but it's amazing when you get to breakthrough the walls miraculously and I know in life in our dreams and visions we will face dead ends but it is ok... let's not give up... let's press in... and breakthrough!

1st Contact (Passing FTT)

Told some of my old friends it will take a while for us to meet again. As we proceed with our busy adult life we know that sometimes in life we do have to focus on some things and yet we know that through all these acheivements are nothing more than just to bless somebody. All of us have a job to develop our natural abilities.

So after a great meal with my old friends last Mon, all of us know that we have a thing or more to settle and we have to face our current season. So here am I first contact on my world to progress and I started off strong! I passed my Final Theory Test and now left the last to clear, my Driving Practical Test before I go for my degree.

"It's by the grace of God, everything we acheive."

Dad, I'm Home

"Dad, indeed I'm back home, not physically here staying with you but I hope our hearts will be united as one family worshipping the Lord and loving one another as a family."

Currently we are in a 21 Days of 1 Hour per day prayer season and I have testimonies to say for my career promotion and family salvation but half an hour more is Father's Day and I guess today it is my happiest Father's Day in life. So let me share about my family salvation first.

My dad the only unbeliever in my direct family went down to the altar call with me today. He was smiling and was open in the service. I want to thank my heavenly Father for this as He is the one that makes all these things possible! Thank you Andy for encouraging me to invite my dad down to the altar call because I always lack of the courage to invite him down and was feeling abit afraid at that moment.

I always respected my dad alot, I love my dad but he used to be very strict with me when I was young and that was when I started to be abit fearful when I communicate with him. Overall I think it is a breakthrough because I actually get to express more of my love for him today.

"Dad, indeed I'm back home, not physically here staying with you but I hope our hearts will be united as one family worshipping the Lord and loving one another as a family."

I said give me three years...

and now it is left with another 2 and a half year for me to fufill it. I don't want to show off anything but I just want to be who I am in another realm, wait for me... I'll come to you in due season, I'll be the best of you.

Right now... I dun mind to know you more.

Real Brotherhood Three

Well, there are three people that are important in my life. They are the one that stood by me in my darkest time and I guess it's time to write about them to let them know how I cherish the brotherhood relationship I have with them.

So here comes the first one: Yong Chuan (My mentor in everything)
Why I said everything? He is the first one who taught me about serving in the kingdom of God and also an advisor for my studies and career for quite a while. I end up doing the same thing as him, a singer and someone who knows abit of guitar. What else? He is also working in the field of IT. Wow... amazing right? Also... he taught me about being humble which I think that's something that is very important in life. (I used to be very proud)

second one: Annoymous (Buddy of everything)
Well imagine someone having exactly the same interest in almost everything! Music, Our own unknown langauge and thinking, Playing Games (Hey I don't play games nowadays, because I got more imp things to do.), Jokes, Theology and food! But the most important thing I should say is how he really spend time to listen when I'm in my darkest moment and encouraged me.

third and the most imp one: Shixiong (Thank you for everything)
I want to thank him, because he is the one who brought me the words from heaven and without all those words, I'll still live in my old ways and thinking. My current life is so good now, thanks to his leadership! He's really a man of prayer, a man that closely follow the ways of God. Through him I got to know God more and I really want to thank him for this friendship, for really being a friend and a good listener. Also want to thank him for all the laughter, hahaha... the jokes! He is not just a leader, but a friend in my life.

Investments For Life

The most important thing when comes to investment is time and patient and I guess you don't just apply it for money but for life.

As I'm in a season of sowing seeds I guess there is no rush for results but so far things are still smooth. Risk? We are born to take it.

Now is the crucial moment as I am approaching to warzone. Things will be well, will be well..

Spirit Fall

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Well, just bought the 3 songs combo and I think it's very nice! Yes, indeed when we seek His kingdom, when we experience a touch from the Spirit our life will change! Wow.. from last year till now, what a miracle I experience in my life! Even today... just received some ministry progress and I know it is not me but it is His Spirit inside of me working and making a difference in my life. Just want to give Him all the glory and all the praise for everything He has done in my life! Amen. Goodnight!

Enjoying Your Work?

When you are doing something you like, you won't mind to work OT and guess what? Yesterday I worked till 2.50am.

Wow.. I'm so thankful this week that I really get to see the good sides of all my colleagues. One of my female colleague is a very generous person, insisted to treat us expansive things and for my department colleagues, I find that I have a good boss and buddy too. Think my boss and buddy really gave me the training and patience that most people will feel reluctant to give.

I will try my best, I will never let them down and I really need the strength from Him.
Thank You for everything. Well I have work later and at midnight will be out to Mustafa for night shopping with my cell group.

Now it's already Sunday morning, so tomorrow will be a public holiday, so I just want to take this opportunity to wish you guys a HAPPY HOLIDAY! Have a nice break day! WOHOO!

Re Service: The Coming ICT (In Camp Training)

I'm in KINS Unit, went to breifing today and notice that this Unit Training Programme is really like Army. Basically we are like SWAT doing building warfare, therefore I think that's the reason why we start to learn all the things we heard from Army.

Well... the training looks more challenging than my NS training and this residential/stay in training will take about 3 weeks and thats long! We are the only Re Service unit that requires residential training and heard from our sir that we must be mentally prepared for no bookout in the weekends.

Was reminded about the time when I was still a trainee in the camp today and different supports from friends I have at the time. I guess that's life, we gotto accept it and move on! Thanks for all the support I have this time round from new friends and really thank you for being a faithful friend to me, I'll do my very best in my first In Camp Training in July. Jia you (keep it up) Emil!

Taking Off From A Plane

Byebye sweet homeland
like the time I went NS
Here I am in real tension
like the time I stay in camp
But one thing I know for sure
I will be safe for this time.

I am with Him and guess what?

Things have been tiggered off and it is getting exciting: Country (Re-Service: New Assault Type Unit) Family (Real peace like never before), Career (IT Job Challenge, Music Productions), Ministry (New Path), Friendship (So many new friends!), Romanticly (My church friends matchmaking me with someone else, is a joke I think? Dunno...but the time is quite prophetic to my new life season. Put it last because well I can look around right now but I think in this area I will be super caution and slow this year.)

So ya... let's see how it goes? Goodnight, gotto work tmr.

Stronger Than Ever Before

Well I thought of concluding the New Life Aim and move on to the normal posting, but the New Life Aim is going to cost abit of my time and I'm quite busy nowadays with my work and ministries, therefore I'll continue with my normal posting and I'll post a final conclusion of my new life aim when I got more time. Well, good to be back to talk again (lor soh).

Shortly after I started a new life and overcome my trails and tribulations, one thing I benefit from the incident is I am stronger than ever and even stronger than the times before my trials and tribulation.

I have a secret behind this and I guess I dun need to say much about it but the main thing I want to say is, it is not just your secret. So what if you have the best secret weapon and in the end you step on a trap or you got backstab by someone somehow?

One thing I learn in life, it's not how you start off the race but how you end it. Don't get proud, don't be over confident, don't trust your flesh too much, becareful, flee from evil and I believe I can even grow more. Really amazing in times like this I can suddenly go up to this place that all my life I didn't taste of it before.

Last New Life Series: Letting Go And Moving On (This entry is for those who were once my super close buddy)

Well this is the last thing I'm going to talk about regarding my life and I'm going to conclude my New Life Aim in the next entry and I will try my best to live a new life 24/7.

This is the saddest thing I wanted to talk about, there will always be people who choose not to let go or forgive and in life if there is no trust, relationships will stop growing. No right or wrong, we don't trust everyone but we must forgive everyone.

I think in my life lots of friends left me because of conflicts, change of character, my wrong doings but in life it's really not good for me to put responsibilities in others. I guess, I have a part to play, to let go and to be stronger.

Forgiving myself and to move on with life is not easy, really need to let go alot and discipline to stop myself for critisizing others who left my life. Through all these maybe most of you will think that I won't benefit anything from it but I just want to say... problems make us stronger.

Through all these I found a new life, new relationships, new ministry, new career, new dreams and visions! So what if I lost them? My guitar teacher always told me this, "don't get bitter, get better!" and it's really good that I'm learning not to blame others but to take responsibility on my part and not others, that's the character of a real man and dosen't matter if I lost something, whatever I lost I'm going to get it back with all the lessons I have learn in the past. So what if my spiritual life got affected so much from my wrong doing in the past? I'll pick it up once again... I'll pray more... I'll serve more, I'll love more and many more.

So lastly I just want to say, maybe some of you here are so called my friends but you don't really consider me as a friend in your heart and I'm going to say to everyone that I'm sorry but if you guys think that I can't be trusted, I will not blame you but I will move on in life. Whatever unhappiness, let's throw it away (Letting Go) and move on in life.

Let's get better, maybe we can't be good friends anymore but at least we were once good friends and we fought a good fight with a good memory. Cheers :)!

From the bottom of my life.
From Emil, Always your friend.

2nd Last New Life Series: The Fight OF Life (Further Studies, Financial Planning, Romance etc)

Well... the topic of my new life is coming to an end soon in my blog and yes "The New Life Series" will be myself living it out 24/7. So my blog entries will be back to normal, hopefully not too personal but intresting.

In adulthood, all of us have been trying very hard. Really very hard, be it in relationship, studies, career, ministry and all kinds of things.

Responsibilities and the demand of productivity in your daily life is growing heavier and heavier but we have only one solution for this tiring adulthood stage, "The Supernatural Prayer". I've been planning alot recently for my further studies and also did lots of financial planning for myself.

Well for my romantic life, not going to concentrate on it this year and but for next year? Maybe or maybe not but I know that this year is the foundation of my adulthood life and I really got to spend more time on it.

Gotto have the Right Flow Of Life from the top/our Father in whatever we do and things will be smooth. May I be strong in the midst of the tension of life.

New Life Series Part 9: Adulthood Process In Singapore

Well... my Malaysian cousin is here tonight, got to shift to my bro's place to sleep. Spend about an hour to really tidy up my room and I guess my room is super neat now.

Okie let's go the main thing for today, I received a letter today and I saw this police logo and the word "ON GOVERNMENT SERVICE". Oh... re service is finally here and guess what? I'm in the KINS Unit, one of the unit from SOC. So this STAR Team or people know them as "SWAT Team or fei hu dui" is also under SOC.

So somehow I am related to this formidable team in Singapore and of course the training will be tiring but I guess work and re service is part of the life for guys in Singapore. So 1985 buddies, let's keep it up k? 123 Yes!

The New Life Series Part 8: I'm a 3C (Potential husband)

Hahaha... I know it's lame but it's good to be lame once in a while. I just obtained my first credit card yesterday! It's just like yesterday when I were still a child when I watched those hero main character guy with a credit card. It looks good!

Well, in Singapore people like to talk about 5C husbands. Having a Career, some spare Cash, Credit Card for convenient payment and well for the next two still need to take sometime for me to get them!

A Car and a Condo! So for now, let me just aim for a Car. Lastly, I'm not a husband yet and so I'm a potential one.

So with all the explanation above, that concludes my title for this post. It is good to prosper but let's not let all these be our reason for living.

The New Life Series Part 7: The Right Flow Of Life (Priorities In Relationship)

Well recently I felt that my relationship in ministry and my daily social life are growing and from there, there is a lesson to learn, allow me to speak the spiritual aspect of my life again because I felt that this will be one of the key for this new life. Felt that In life we always need to take note of certain patterns or principals, we need to set priorities in whatever things we do and this pincipal can be applied in your workplace, relationships, ministries and many more.

Well, today specificly I need to remind myself to do this in relationship. What I mean is really invest in the most important place and then let it flow down. Our God is good and that's why we need to give Him all the priorities in terms of relationship so that the more we build our relationship the more He will teach us to love our family and friends. If you can't give more of your time to your cell group, then don't think of meeting a need and healing a hurt in the lost world.

Well, if the relationship between you and your family is in a mess, better settle it first before you proceed further to the lost world. You need a place to rest and ultimately before you rest physically, you need to rest spiritually in the secret place.

I really believe as I set priorities in the right thing, I'll begin to see a right flow in my life and everything will seem to be so right because there is a flow from the top and whatever we do we will not be powerless.

The New Life Series Part 6: Music Career Breakthrough

I'm really so excited for the album which I have participated is about to release soon! Yes soon! So happy that I have made some progress in my song writting career too! Well, really want to thank the team for working so hard and it's really the unity that brought us to this level.

Well personally, I really want to say that this is the evidence of what I felt earlier on in the beginning of the year that indeed this is the year of promotion. Even in my church ministry as I'm walking towards the path of a singer and guess what?! An opportunity is right infront of me and I really want to believe that indeed that all these things will progress so that I can serve Him even more and glorify our Father in heaven. All the glory to our God!

Gotto work tomorrow so goodnight friends!

The New Life Series Part 5: The Gathering For A Purpose

Well, it has been a while since I stuck myself on this topic of new life and I really do believe that spiritual thing can be preached by your actions, the way you handle a seed of new life.

Today I'm going to talk about my life again and this is a topic that I usually dun talk that much in my blog but today I just want to appreciate this group of people in my life. Before I start I just want to say the reason that I dun usually talk about this topic is because it is quite a sensitive topic to talk about and maybe some of you might misunderstood my meaning? I dunno... but trust me, everything I said today is a fresh expression of my very true heart.

Ok now let me begin, friends... I believe different people are called to be together for a greater purpose and I believe the group of people is my cell group member! (Surprised E254! If you guys are reading... haha..) Well it dosen't mean that my other friends are not as important! No! But I believe my cell group is somehow a cell group that I've always wanted to be with, not because they are better than others but we have the same values and I believe this is no coincidence, we have something to accomplish together and that's the reason God put us together.

Well everybody will have their own group of people to work with for a higher purpose in life, you have your own group to look for (if you haven't found one) or you have your own group to work with (to improve in the ability to work better as a group)...

and I know my group... I really do... we are together not because of us... but for higher calling and I just found out this recently... I didn't really water the seed... but now I see the potential of this group... that indeed if I work on it I will see a forest from this group. The path of new life is ahead of me, don't look back and now as I'm walking I have already tasted some of the good fruits from the trees and I believe more fruits will bare... I believe...

Different Values, Different Groups but many groups are called.

The New Life Series Part 4: What Is The New Life Series?

Before I start talking, just want to say some of you might find this post abit more spiritual than most of my other entries and normally I don't talk much about this topic in my blog. So if you are not a believer, just give me an entry to share this. I think once in a while, it's good to talk about the kingdom of God.

First, let me just explain what's my defination of my "The New Life Series?"

Defination: It's not about my old life but my new life in Christ and it's about my personal specific revelations of transforming the different pieces of my old life. (Example: Relationship with people, my family, my career and my personal life etc.) We read in the bible that "He makes all things new!"

So basically, it's just all about how I am going to lead my life and it's like encouraging myself through this blog. You know when I posted something edifying, it helps when I view it again and again! Of course I will not be talking about spiritual things all the time but any new thing we have in life is like a seed, where you want to plant your seed? So in other words what's your decision for your seed? Every new thing has the potential to grow like a seed for the glory of God but you have to make the right decision just like placing the seed in the right place so that it can grow.

One of the very important decisions we need to make in our life is to change our attitudes in whatever we do, to the beattitudes. You can change the way you think and you can change your attitude! Maybe all the while I have been doing all the right things for something but with a wrong attitude and that's the reason why that particular seed is not growing. Anyway, I need to sleep now and I'll talk about one of my "new things" next time!

The New Life Series Part 3: What's So Good About Becoming An IT Staff?

What a fruitful weekend, have been busy working and self study at night. Well basically my job deals with troubleshooting, asset management, AV job, abit of technician stuff and next time will be doing server too. That's why I got to understand the basic networking knowledge, so that I will understand the source of certain problems.

But I guess serving internal staff is much more better than serving the whole Singapore, like customer service. Internal stuff is more understanding and they don't give you difficult things to solve all the time. Anyway... talking about becoming an IT Specialist is one of my childhood dreams, I guess one thing cool about IT Staff is people will value your skill and normally you don't see alot of IT Staff in one company and so in the sense you are really their savior as you know today in our world work cannot be seperated from technology, the PC can affect your productivity and that's why IT Staff is cool to me but there is a price for becoming cool.

The New Life Series Part 2: My IT Career

Previously I was working as a Customer Service Executive and I guess it's time to move on and here I found my new job as an IT Specialist in Singapore Discovery Centre! Well... what's my goals for my career? Learn as much as possible and try to learn something more advanced like server. What else? Need to save up a bit for my University Education as well.

Wow... I guess that's a very good place to get some real experience but ever since after my Secondary Education, be it my further studies or career, most of the time will be on the west side and it's a bit tiring I think. Next time look around when you are traveling in the morning, most of the passengers will be sleeping and it's super quiet! You know why I said this? Most of the people will say the traveling time is good for reading but I guess for me is really depend on my mood for that day. If it is monday, I don't think so... monday blues!

The New Life Series: The Little Things

Well, started blogging about 5 years ago and now I just felt that the way I express myself is getting more and more personal. Is it good or bad? Who knows... I guess we cannot find a real answer.

Talking about life and myself, I guess the only difference is the matter of whether is it personal or not but I guess the similarity of both is about life.

So I just want to work more on myself in this year and I guess you will see me talking about myself more and more here in this place. I'm going to talk more about my personal life, dreams, career and lastly even my romantic vision for my future (haha... well maybe that will be abit later or maybe not.)

So now let me start, everybody has a dream and I think it's good but I dun think we should be over excited and forget about the little things we have in hand. I remember today there was a simple incident happened a few hours back, well I'm not the hero in the story but rather I felt that I am really unskilled in that area. What to do? Let's face it like a man (talking to myself), though everyone felt that I'm the hero but deep inside myself I know that before I can be the hero there's this little thing I need to settle. Just give myself some time (talking to myself again) and one by one I'm going to kill it!

Last year I had my greatest trial in life and why it happened? It's because of the little things were not settled at that time and it's only when I changed my thinking and now I begin to stand up once again and this time I felt I am much stronger than before and I know I have much to do now, to build up my life to a greater and higher level than before. I can already sense that indeed something great is going to come to my life in this year and I'm so excited about it!

Some of My "Under Constructions"

Well, for the opening of the team... it was terrific! Such a joy to announce that the opening is a success but all of us know after the opening there will be more for us to do.

So lots of things I need to work on and I'm not going to tell you directly hahaha... but here's the hint:

1. My Team (Currently with high morale!)

2. My 2nd Family Fellowship (Still got some room for improvements, gotto work on that.)

3. My Liabilities (It's in neutral situation.)

4. My Admin (It's in a critical stage!!!)

11 March 2008 Excited about the cure or opening?

I have a team officially opening today, you won't understand how excited I am as I know today is a start of the destiny for us! Well but there is another thing in my mind right now, some incident happened within these few days in my life right now and I'm going to share a bit.

You know my heart is a bit excited right now, partly it is because of the opening but also there's something else and I don't know if it is good. A 100% change of my mood, it's really strange and I really don't know if it is good because it might not be something I want to do but something I feel like doing.

Finally my turning point is infront of me, should I feed my cure or not? I really don't know but 1 thing I know, I'm always honest in my blog and finally I can CHANGE MY MOOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YEAH!!!!

Updated on 10:18am:

You know what my hair is standing now, really wondering what's happening to me??? Time to be a man! Yea... Eunice I hope I can do it, thanks for tagging.

Boys Be... (A must to see, romantic people!)

Boys Be... one of my favourite romantic animation. Though it is an old animation and comic, but the story is very touching and realistic in life. I like the guy alot, think he is super shuai, of course I'm not a gay and I think Aki is a nice girl too.

My favourite episode is episode 4, therefore I'm going do a short intro in the episode.

Source: Boys Be... Japanese Animation

Part of The Review Description From: http://www.animenewsnetwork.com/review/boys-be/dvd-2

Past

Aki Mizutani is a fun-loving girl who had a crush on Tsuyoshi Ueno in middle school, but he was too focused on his photography to notice.

Present

After they went to college, they didn't see each other again as they are in different school but...

On a chance encounter during the rainy season Aki met Tsuyoshi again, in the street, which dredges up all her old feelings.

:))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

No one can stop the flow of time.

But...

...A picture kept inside the heart...

...Will always be there.

Deep within, the picture will be displayed...

...and it will forever touch the heart...

...Sweetly...

...Bitterly. (Taken from Boys Be... Episode 4 English Subtitle)

Flirting or Restricted To Love?

My brother and I knew this female friend, she's quite a emotional girl but that's not the point and the main topic I want to post today is about flirting. Haha.. you must be shocked, I seldom wrote about this kind of thing at my blog but I usually discuss this kind of topic with my brothers very often.

Well... this female friend of mine thought I was a "qing shen" a romantic killer and of course I dun think so but she told my bro that she always saw me flirting with girls and she said I got a good communication skill for romantic conversations with girls! (hong nu hai) Haha... I know some of you is already laughing but hahaha I find it super funny too. Anyway... I'm really not that kind who flirt around and I'm really a faithful person when comes to any relationship, like friendship and BGR (I believe I will have one before the age of 26). That dosen't mean that I am good in relationship, guess I have lots of emotional weakness too but I guess that's the only strength I have... being faithful in heart (and sometimes I'll restrict my actions and adjust accordingly on my assurance level).

So right now let me thank all my friends, thanks for giving me a chance to be faithful and maybe you may not like me or you might disagree with what I post tonight but one thing I am saying out of my very heart, I will always be a faithful friend to those who accepted me as a friend.

Relationship And Ourselves

Men are not designed to be alone and that's why in every organization, every family, every circles of friends are looking for real relationship and unity.

People always make a big difference in our lives, that's why you see people hanging out, offering to treat, offering to celebrate and it is so beautiful to me.

It's good to have friends but it's better to have friends that will be united together working with your dreams and visions. Everyman needs a team, support and not just Kopitiam friends. Not just those who always once in a while appear and talk about life! No, there's a reason for a gathering and things that looks unspiritual can be spiritual! Of course you need to set your prioity right and yes it is not just gathering and recruiting but it is much more than that.

God is looking for a team full of faith and expectations, doing things that seems to be crazy but the fact is they are really the one called to be History Maker and I know one thing for sure, if we don't change our thinking and we don't deal with ourselves then no one will be attracted to you and all of them will remain as your coffee friends for sure.

I knew this and that's why, what others did to you is not that important but it's how you respond to it! It's not about your situation but it is what you can do in your situation, are you weak or strong? I remember I read this from the bible and it is so true in our lives:

Matthew 5:13 “You are the salt of the earth; but if the salt loses its flavor, how shall it be seasoned? It is then good for nothing but to be thrown out and trampled underfoot by men.

Where will I be? What will I become? It is now Emil.... don't give up!

Thinking and Communcation

It's friday night again! Well would like to talk abit, Actually I think I can be quite uncle at times, sometimes just can't stop saying the same thing over and over again. Well... but seriously speaking how to become a good talker? (In other words social expert?)

Of course, I'm not an expert and you know sometimes you can know something but it's another thing when comes to application.

Well I think there's a set of good rules you can follow but that's only just one factor, I think your mind plays a bit part too! I personally think the first thing we should start to work on is our thinking, the way we think about ourselves affects the way we behave and of course the way we behave will affect others. Another fact about thinking and communication is the way you think about others, example like have you forgived that particular person, look down on others, or do you really love the person or do you have motive? All of it plays a bit part!

Well... so personally I think we should first work on our thinking then communications tactic. After all, sometimes people can feel what's on your mind.

So let us all keep it up k? Goodnight!

Thought I Was Going To Die

Last Sunday morning, I woke up with abit of flu and so I thought it was ok for me to serve at Church. Well it became fever after I came down from the platform. Wow.. the message is very good, it's really a rhema word to my life and guess what after the service my cell member and I were super tired so we parted our seperate ways immediately after the service, so when I was on my way to MRT station, I lost control of my body and my leg refused to obey my command almost banged into people and objects.

After a while (which was ages to me), I went back home and thought I'll be okay after my rest and few hours later the heat temperature increased and I think the fever had already progressed to high fever. I quickily grab some panados, 2 caps for 3 times that Sunday, almost slept the whole day but still the heat temperature didn't stop.

In the midnight, I felt that my head almost like going to explode and I really really thought I was going to die as I was really struggling in pain and immediately I thought of something, if I die now what's my last words? Not going to tell you since I'm still alive but I can tell you that the msg I thought of is really a very sad msg and it will affect the people around me. It's a msg of appreciation though.

That night I told myself "I really cannot die! I have lots of things to do, lots of things to settle, lots of things to let go and I wanted to go at the right time." Well after that night still the heat temprature was still as high as that midnight but I have peace that I will start to recover after taking another 2 caps. To cut the long story short, I know that in future when I'm ready to go my msg will still be an appreciation msg but it will be different and people will smile with tears when they read it.

Don't waste your time, do what you can before it is too late!

Wow, so I have been sleeping for 2 days +! Really need this kind of rest. By the way... I'll be going to Malaysia tomorrow to visit my relatives, so let me wish you in advance a Happy Chinese New Year!!! Firecrackers!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! BOOM!!!

"SAW" The Beginning Of Everything

To me our eyes is the beginning of everything, where you look at it, how you look at it, all will affect your life. Now I understand why people took drugs, I really really can have a taste of their life.

The pain, the feeling of a walking dead, ohh it's really scary.

People like the comic daredevil, killing all those bad guys just to make him feel better, trying to control his inner hurts of one mafia boss murdered his dad. People like spiderman after losing his gf, the black thing seems like something fun to make him numb (though the gf came back).

One thing I learn about life is, no matter who you are, Spiderman (things turn out to be good) or daredevil (the one who failed to save his girlfriend), don't give up, don't give up your dreams, look at the right direction and stop making reverse.

Ohh... I can't wait to walk out of this place and never return to it again.

Bye Terror By Night

Good memories
Bad memories
Keep the good one
Throw the bad one
For the good one

Source From Mr Emil Lim. Signing Off To Bed.

Success Fact

Wow... Kc Gan, our songwritter wrote this song, "Sanctuary" and won a 2nd position in a Internation Christian Song Competition. He's the only asian who made it into the final!

You know I can recall the endless stories of the successful news I heard about people, but it's time that we ourselves stand up in unity and create history.

I know and I believe we can do it, if we change our thinking and act it out in faith. 2008... here I am!

4th Anniversary Of The Black Road

My body has fail me, it's tiredness, I still haven't sumbit something but I believe I will be sumbiting it tomorrow. The hour might delay for a while but it will come... soon.

Oh Yeah... 2008 here I come!

Officially it is on 31st but don't have the time to write it and I write today instead.

I think just yesterday I heard something, if I can just trust and follow and the darkness can turn to light again.

The light has arrived, open the door and let the light come in.

I had a few year end outing but I spend my night outside my place and it happened. Can all the darkness really turn into day?

Yes it can... The glory is coming, just open the door fully.

Let's celebrate this year of promotion! Yeah! Thank you for sharing my life in The Black Road for 4 years... Look at how time flies! So many things have change for you and me but we are still alive here and I believe the year of promotion has come. Don't give up, fight on guys!